Sunday, October 25, 2009


Segar hari ini
Sejarah meninggal
Segak berseri
Seperti intan bernilai

Sayu hati ini
Sampah sinonim diri
Sarat benak fikiran
Sandarkan masa depan

Setia itu kawan
Sahabat tiada mesti
Sayang sudah pergi
Semangat ini janji.

ps: made no sense,but somehow it does,i think.

Friday, October 23, 2009

'Semangat' or is it?

I haven't been writing about my life,wait my new life in a different continent,different environment and of course different 'semangat'. To be honest, the 'tamparan hebat' of my results has not subside which is weird as I am not the kind of person who would dwell and whine about things that happen to me. Almost everyday NO! everyday i still hear myself asking what if? at the bottom of my heart.What if I had done this? What if I hadn't go there? What if? That's why I'm usually writing crappy poems(if you can call them poems but of course,you can definitely call them crappy).

I am now here in university with a new found semangat. A spirit that is rarely in me after this so many years. Frankly, how I got this far has always been a wonder as I was never(still am not) passionate about anything in my life. I do love money.umm but that's not passion,that's an obsession. However, here it goes. My semangat. I want to work hard. I want to forget the past(which i can't even now). Sometimes, though now it feels like most of the time, this semangat of mine has its drawbacks. I feel that this semangat make me feel disconnected somehow. I'm more distant from others. These days, I smile less, I look more serious and am just not as involved as I once have. Giving reasons of this sort of behaviour is what I always do. What if I want to keep this new spirit of mine without having to forgo other things that do matter to me. Is there an equilibrium point for both sides? Do I have to chose? Or is this one of those creepy questions that can only be answered after the life-long journey ahead? I can't wait that long. How do I know? huh?

yapping.yapping.yapping. On the bright side(haha suddenly ade bright side,apekah?), I have been blessed, I know. I realised that ever since I got this scholarship from Mara. I have been blessed. Who gets a C in further maths with a D and E for its components? Strange.But that is the work of Allah. He is always kind. I feel grateful. Thank you. :') really.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Beautiful Day

Beautiful day
What a beautiful day
What a beautiful day

I'm locked up here in my room again
I'm looking out at the bloody rain
It's a beautiful day and everybody's out there
while I'm sitting here in vain

They're all having fun on the beautiful day
All alone I'm thinking of walking away
Walk,walk away from this beautiful day

I got to gut it out,trying to act the part
for mummy and daddy back home,i'm going to study hard
I haven't live the life I wanted
kept missing the parts I needed
can't never pull it together in time
try to make this beautiful day mine.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

.:the first month:.

Question: Describe your first month experience in another country?

Answer: year.sad.SHOPPING.happy.tomyam.lonely.baking.boys(byan n chaer's department ofcourse)

How do I search for something if I don't know what I'm looking for?

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

He is always kind to me

He has been kind to me
even if I did not pray
He has been kind to me
giving me a life I could not have asked for more
He has been kind to me
when I nearly took my life away
He has been kind to me
even when I lied
He has been kind to me
even when I start to question
He has been kind to me
when I got want I wanted
He has always been kind to me
when I forget what I have
He has always been there for me
but why do i still sigh?
He has always been kind to me
but why do I continue to be a brat
He has always been kind to me

Now I wish I could be kind for Him.