Top Ten Things To Do Before I die

*the title is actually misleading.... but it just gave a more dramatic effect as a title.. that's what it is, just another title like so many others in here and out there...
I've been very good lately...I havent updated this blog in almost a month..BRAVO amira!

But today is Thursday, tomorrow is Friday and the day after tomorrow is Saturday and the next next Saturday is Award's Day which means I am going to leave this college...

A part of me can't wait to get this over and done with...I need a change in life.I need beginnings.I hate ends. And change is always for the better,always.period.

However, this place is something alright. It gave me more than I could ever imagined. But uggghh this is not a sad soppy post I want to write about goodbyes, atleast not yet. I still have three more weeks. I want to cherish the last moments of life here in this college. And there are still things I want to do here.

Before I go, I must finish this list of thing to do...think of this like a wish list like in the movie A Walk to Remember where that ailing girl had a 100 top ten things to do before she dies. It's like that but just without the cancer, the hot guy and it's not 100, it's just ten. :)

Top Ten Things I Want To Do Before I Leave KYUEM

1. mandi sprinkler kat padang(ok, standard ar nih, in fact i bet a lotta people already done it, but i havent, and it is MY list)

2. Ikut ami pergi new block bagi makan kucing2 tuh... i slalu tgk dari jauh and think to myself...wo... by the way i geli kucing so, it will be a challenge.

3. Pergi naik atas tangki kyuem tapi tak nak jatuh la cam alissa..tibe..

4. Star-gazing (more like dark-sky-gazing) at the field at night until muscom halau us...heeee

5. ....tak tau lah....tak sampai ten pun...saje je letak ten pun sebab top ten sounds better than top five...top ten macam aliterasi .. pengulangan konsonan dalam ayat..jadi lebih sedap didengari

i thought i had a lot more to do in kyuem, i thought my list will be so long until i cannot bear to leave in three weeks time...but my list to do at home is way longer... baking, shopping, movie-ing, tomoking and soooo much more.... cant wait! So to be honest, i can't bear and can't wait to leave kyuem... sure i 'll miss everyone so so much but i am ready for a change....

Pauline R. Kezer once said " Continuity gives us roots; change gives us branches, letting us stretch and grow and reach new heights. "

So, Let's GO and get outta here!!

owh wait...i still have three more papers to go...yikes!

titik noktah . . . . . . . . .

ini titik noktah kita
sukarkah untuk
engkau fahamkannya
ini titik noktah cinta
sakitkah hati kau
kisah kita mati juga

sudah lama jantungku
berhenti berdegup
telah kuhilangkan mukamu
di benak fikiranku
sampai mata hati
tiada mengenali
hingga deria tiada merasa
tak mampu kasih berkuasa...

tak larat menanti
sudah penat berkasih
tiba masa kukemudi
kapal ku sendiri
kini kuberdiri
di atas kaki
tanpa tanganmu di sisi

titik noktah cinta
tak bermakna ku mengalah
titik noktah kita
detik ku berjaya
melepaskan kau
yang kusut tiada berarah
dan aku bebas
hanya berserah

selamat tinggal
lara hati
sayu kasih
selamat datang
rona ceria

owh bahagianya...

I Look Inside Your Lover's Eyes

I look inside your lover's eyes
and wonder what she has for you
I look inside your lover's eyes
and wonder if she really wants you

You, don't understand the meaning of
You, don't know what to do
You, have no idea how to choose
Why oh why, can't you see?
I can be the better girl
I'm here to rock your world

One day, I look inside your lover's eyes
I see nothing but a long-haired chick with a tweezer
She couldn't look like more of a loser
She looked damn great but she seemed fake
So, when I look inside your lover's eyes
Can't see what you like about her
Can't see what makes her tougher

Owh when i look inside your lover's eyes
I see nothing but I'm mystified
I hate the feeling of knowing that I'm better than her
Yet you pick her
Yeah you pick her
Can't believe I don't even stand a chance
Because you pick her

I look inside your lover's eyes
Then I look into your eyes
That's when I realise
Something I
didn't before
You're nothing but a no good two timing guy
who only cares about his hair
Owh no wonder when I look inside your lover's eyes
no wonder when I look inside your lover's eyes
I see you.......

current mood: nak balik!!! can't wait for tomorrow... :)

mawar dan cendawan

sebalik cendawan beracun
mawar merah tersembunyi
di kala mekar
penangan tiada diduga
di kala layu
dicaci maki hamun
kata orang
lemah tatkala tiada berlidah
kata orang
melampau tatkala bertegah

jika bersimpuh
digelar mawar bertopeng
jika bersila
digelar mawar berduri

mahu apa dari mawar?
harum kuntum tapi tawar
sudahlah
perlu senyum bila sedih
sudahlah
perlu tabah dan mengalah

ingin mawar mencari setawar
indah lagi nun jauh di sana
hilang malapetaka jauh bencana
namun mengapa mawar kembali
tahu tiada harapan di sini
oh hentikanlah cendawan beracun
masa makin suntuk
mawar makin buntu
masa sudah setuju
mawar sudah layu


mood: poetic n pathetic la plak...

Far

warning: may or may not contain grammatical errors..i didn't bother to check.

Far

it feels like
a thousand three hundred and seventy two miles
away from you
it is going to be
another seventy seven years sixty days and five hours
till i get to see you
which all equals to the null possibility
of touching your hand
and watching you upfront
unbearably crazy of wanting
to witness a glimpse
of you

let alone hear you
never will i
as it's undeniably impossible
so i say
hey
why go through the trouble?
let it be just afar
i'll seat here
from far
as i've got you on my radar


mood: ntahla~

dulu music, now muzik...

I find that in the 19 years and 349 days that i've lived in this world, i've always remembered my life by referring to certain phases or 'seasons' i'm going through... for example, around this time last year, i was so tergilakan david cook....owh 'always be my baby' is just super hot and sweet at the same time...and i remember one week in november last year during the AS exams, i was so obsessed with Shah Rukh Khan...lol

and now, I'm so into malaysian music!....it all started after watching tomok's 'Lalala Kerjalah' performance on oiam3..that got me interested in the song and the band that originally produced that song and ofcourse tomok..hehe.... and sooner than you know it, i fell in love with meet uncle hussein, bunkface, yuna, hujan, aizat, stacy and surprise surprise i can even sing to the lyrics of datuk siti's 'di taman teman'..haha...funny how cepat you like something and cepat you dont like something... these to me are like crushes...you know, like how fast you like someone and the next four months or the next day, you dont feel anything about him... :p.. anyways, back to the topic...

so these phase in my life is what i call my 'appreciation towards great malaysian music' season... it may be over next week, or month or even tomorrow, i'll never know... but until this season is over, i'm going to continue to enjoy the songs and the lyrics of such great talents...

and for the time being, this song is stuck in my head, not just because of the catchy soothing music but also the ever so sweet and meaningful lyrics..

Deeper Conversation by Yuna


is your favourite colour blue?
do you always tell the truth?
do you believe in outer space?
and i'm learning you...

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
does your hair flow side-ways?
did someone take a portion of your heart?
and I'm learning you

I've let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me all your hopes and fears
And everything that you believe in
would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
only you can make me...

deeper conversation
with me.....


does your name rhyme with mine?




mood: emo~ currently listening to faizal tahir's Bencinta too....emo giler...but *heart* it...

Lagu Tema Peperiksaan Percubaan

Saya sudah bertekad untuk berpuasa blogging sepanjang trials tapi hari ini, sehari sebelum paper applied further, saya batal puasa....

i need to write this to keep going..it may not be my fave song but it's the song i need to listen to...

Lagu tema peperiksaan percubaan Further Mathematics Applied

The Climb

by Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
(result further maths)

That dream I'm dreaming but
(fly ke UK)

There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
(further hampeh camne nak fly huh?)

Every step I'm taking,
(buat past year papers, tak tahu camne nak jawab)

Every move I make feels
(tgk skema jawapan)

Lost with no direction
(masih tak boleh faham)

My faith is shaking but I
(mmg cuak gile, camne nak jawab esok)

Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
(saya mampu!)

There's always going to be another mountain
(lepas trials, real exam plak)

I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
(saya vs. further mechanics)

Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
(trials lingkup, a level buat betul2)

Ain't about how fast I get there,
(walaupun lembab skit nak tangkap ape pn. ju ajar)

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
(tak kisah keputusan yang bakal diperoleh)

It's the climb
(perjalanan dan perjuangan itu yang penting)


Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh



note to self: pergi jumpa yana farz dan ili dayana malam ini utk serap sebanyak ilmu yg mungkin sebelum doomsday esok.... :(