sayang si embun

COMING SOON! :P

2010-05-13T10:01:00.000-07:00

-COMING SOON-

:P

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

2010-02-01T11:19:00.001-08:00

Wow!

So much has really happened since my last post here. I haven't been blogging as much as I used to but I will not give up on this blog, at least not yet. I still haven't figured out which direction that this blog is going to take (same goes with my life right now, i must say) but never the less I will NOT give up on this!

So much has changed for the past month. I have a new dream. I'm strengthening an old one as well.
I have changed my perspective on things though I haven't stop believing.

So much I want to do and will do. These few months I will change my life (i thought by saying it here, eventually it will come true, wouldn't it? haha fat chance, it's really all up to me then). It will take a while for anything to happen really.

So, as for now, all I can say here is that this blog (and my life) is

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

till we meet again ;)

A way back home,please.

2009-12-16T08:03:00.001-08:00

This excerpt of a poem is dedicated to my friend whom I wish would come back home because I will not find my way back if she doesn't. Please come back home.

Let me ask you, butterfly, do you remember your cocoon?
Perhaps you recall spinning thread, a caterpillar's ungainly crawl?
If we can jog your memory, maybe there is hope for me.

-by William Kim (Unsong) but I maybe mistaken.

Real Stories.

2009-11-07T12:40:00.000-08:00

So... for about over a month, I have been posting very abstract things about my life through melancholic poems and lyrics which at times don't make sense at all. I would read them again and think to myself "What in the world was I thinking/feeling?" =.=" huh?

Now, let's talk about something real, real happenings in my daily life. This couple of weeks have been all about tests. It started with Calculus,Algebra,Economics, Statistics and yikes Calculus and Algebra again. So, I'm done with them. The night when I finally finished the last test until semester exams was unbelievably boring. After playing squash at the sports centre, I sat at my chair,staring at my pink laptop for about two hours until some unidentified gossip girl started to skype with me. But alas, even after that, we (the gossip girl and I) were still bored to death. Then, I went looking for another gossip girl to chat. So, I called gossip girl no.2 also popularly known as Bimbo No. 2 and we chat for two long hours while stalking people on facebook HAHA. That was fun! Thank You BIMS!!

Random things:

1. I have only ONE sachet of old town hazelnut white coffee here in the UK. So, i am drinking it little by little so that it can last me until winter ie. when I go back to Malaysia. yey!

2.Right now, I'm into Korean. haha this is what happens when you have no other source of entertainment besides what's in your laptop. Right now, I am into 2PM, they're like the BEST boy group ever. So yeah, maybe I'm a bit lembab to like them after so long..but who cares.

3.I bought two chopsticks today, one is pink in colour and another is baby blue..kyaaa~~~ :)

4. Tommorow, I am making kimbap (Korean 'SUSHI'). We'll see how that goes.

5. I just realised that tomorrow is actually spelled with one 'M' and two 'R' (see no.4)

6. And owh, i've just been outbid for an item. :( ugggh.. I need this item to start my new found hobby. I'm not going to give up! Hwaiting!!

Well, that's about it for now. I'm off to make ramyon a.k.a korean instant noodles a.k.a maggi owh but wait, this one has got kimchi in it. So, I'll be having a Korean dinner tonight using my pink chopsticks. :D

감사합니다
"kamsamnida"

....

2009-11-05T09:31:00.000-08:00

What did I get from all that????

Sssssegar...

2009-10-25T13:37:00.000-07:00

Segar hari ini

Sejarah meninggal
Segak berseri
Seperti intan bernilai

Sayu hati ini
Sampah sinonim diri
Sarat benak fikiran
Sandarkan masa depan

Setia itu kawan
Sahabat tiada mesti
Sayang sudah pergi
Semangat ini janji.

ps: made no sense,but somehow it does,i think.

'Semangat' or is it?

2009-10-23T17:32:00.000-07:00

I haven't been writing about my life,wait my new life in a different continent,different environment and of course different 'semangat'. To be honest, the 'tamparan hebat' of my results has not subside which is weird as I am not the kind of person who would dwell and whine about things that happen to me. Almost everyday NO! everyday i still hear myself asking what if? at the bottom of my heart.What if I had done this? What if I hadn't go there? What if? That's why I'm usually writing crappy poems(if you can call them poems but of course,you can definitely call them crappy).

I am now here in university with a new found semangat. A spirit that is rarely in me after this so many years. Frankly, how I got this far has always been a wonder as I was never(still am not) passionate about anything in my life. I do love money.umm but that's not passion,that's an obsession. However, here it goes. My semangat. I want to work hard. I want to forget the past(which i can't even now). Sometimes, though now it feels like most of the time, this semangat of mine has its drawbacks. I feel that this semangat make me feel disconnected somehow. I'm more distant from others. These days, I smile less, I look more serious and am just not as involved as I once have. Giving reasons of this sort of behaviour is what I always do. What if I want to keep this new spirit of mine without having to forgo other things that do matter to me. Is there an equilibrium point for both sides? Do I have to chose? Or is this one of those creepy questions that can only be answered after the life-long journey ahead? I can't wait that long. How do I know? huh?

yapping.yapping.yapping. On the bright side(haha suddenly ade bright side,apekah?), I have been blessed, I know. I realised that ever since I got this scholarship from Mara. I have been blessed. Who gets a C in further maths with a D and E for its components? Strange.But that is the work of Allah. He is always kind. I feel grateful. Thank you. :') really.

Beautiful Day

2009-10-21T14:13:00.000-07:00

Beautiful day
What a beautiful day
What a beautiful day

I'm locked up here in my room again
I'm looking out at the bloody rain
It's a beautiful day and everybody's out there
while I'm sitting here in vain

They're all having fun on the beautiful day
All alone I'm thinking of walking away
Walk,walk away from this beautiful day

I got to gut it out,trying to act the part
for mummy and daddy back home,i'm going to study hard
I haven't live the life I wanted
kept missing the parts I needed
can't never pull it together in time
try to make this beautiful day mine.

.:the first month:.

2009-10-11T10:54:00.000-07:00

Question: Describe your first month experience in another country?

Answer:

Cold.swans.flat.flatmates.kitchen.seniors.makan.raya.sketchers.lectures.1st year.sad.SHOPPING.happy.tomyam.lonely.baking.boys(byan n chaer's department ofcourse).wet.shoe.laundry.yogurttopflapjack.flick-flick.skype.e-assignments.
beautiful.campuslife.great.edinburgh.AMMMMAAAZZZIIINGG.dungeon.
sleep.debitcard.dorothyperkins.reserved.oldtownwhitecoffee.missselfridge.
geegeegeegeebabybaby.udangsambalpetai.ballerinaflats.drama.frozenfood.
newfriends.newfoundfriends.princesstreet.cooking.feel.happy.atpeace.but.lost.

How do I search for something if I don't know what I'm looking for?

He is always kind to me

2009-10-06T14:51:00.000-07:00

He has been kind to me
even if I did not pray
He has been kind to me
giving me a life I could not have asked for more
He has been kind to me
when I nearly took my life away
He has been kind to me
even when I lied
He has been kind to me
even when I start to question
He has been kind to me
when I got want I wanted
He has always been kind to me
when I forget what I have
He has always been there for me
but why do i still sigh?
He has always been kind to me
but why do I continue to be a brat
He has always been kind to me

Now I wish I could be kind for Him.

Let's Read.

2009-09-27T11:30:00.014-07:00

Let's read.

When a person ask you what do you think of Mustafa Kemal and his principles, you should know well enough that it is not Mustafa Kamal pelakon Malaysia yg anaknya Ayuna meninggal dunia (which you found out 2 years ago from Melodi ), and you should not be googling mustafa kamal later either. It just shows clearly how unbelievably empty your general knowledge part of the brain is.
Plus by now, you should also know some parts of the Scottish history and no! knowing Gerard Butler is from Paisley,Scotland is NOT part of history.

The only general knowledge in my head as of right now is that khloe kardasian is getting married.and the only piece of argument that has been battling in my mind is whether ellen degeneres will be a good judge on idol. OMG.

God, i need to read. and hopefully,be clever.

umm this may take a while.

Heriot-Watt Uni. Edinburgh

2009-09-21T14:52:00.000-07:00

Sudah genap satu minggu di Edinburgh, Heriot-Watt Uni to be exact. A lot has happen since I arrived. Rasa macam dah duduk sini satu bulan. So far, mostly nice warm memories minus the unbelievably cold weather. I mean, I know before I came here that Scotland is the coldest place in the UK but boy, I did not expect it would be this cold and yet my scottish flatmate said that this is warm for edinburgh...so yes OMG! takpe2 amira,empat tahun je.. :0

Heriot-Watt Uni as an american would say is "so damn beautiful" or as a malay would say ' bapak gile cantik ah weyh".It was love at first sight for me and I fell in love with this place everyday since.
Tapi, bukan semua best laa..there are downsides of it like homesick but that's just temporary, well at least I hope so.

Classes so far has been ok-ish.Well, it hasn't been memorable to me. The lectures reminds me of my matriculation days. I think it will get better as the term progresses. I have four classes je. Calculus, Algebra, Econs, and Statistical Science.

My flat is really nice too. My room's view is the bomb and my flatmates are really cool... Sebelah my bilik is a Bruneian girl but dh duduk wales for 6 years, friendly sgt2.Dia banyak sama class with me, so kitorg slalu gak hangout. Sebelah bilik dia, is a girl from China. Sangat kelakar.suka menyanyi lagu dlm toilet haha...so comel. and another one is a Scot-tish. Dia cm a bit lepak je...kewl je..bf die blajar kat edinburgh uni n aritu sleepover our flat :0 haha don't worry I tak culture shock sgt so far, thanks to watching a lot of american tv =P Tambahan pula, my hall ni paling havoc arh...Caddon House! mmg pot org nk lepak2, hisap2 rokok and party! dh diajak dh oleh flat 10 kat atas untuk party sabtu ni...hmmmmm... harap iman ku kuat sepanjang pengembaraanku di sini...takpe flat 7 ada budak muscom, so insyaAllah terhindar drpd gejala2 sosial yg ada, unless shapiq konfiden ikut skali berparti :P haha

wOw, im in scotland! still can't believe. Although these past few months did not turn out like I'd like it to be, I still am really really grateful and really really wish I will not screw up,this time.

I know this sounds cliche and may not happen but I really want to turn over a new leaf,not only for others but for myself but most of it, is for others. I hope. I pray. I will.

~~~~~~~let's wait and see where this leads to.

Now I Can Fly ~~~~

2009-09-11T04:56:00.000-07:00

Setelah 20 tahun hidup, 13 tahun belajar, 5 hari di BTN, 4 hari di MOC, 3 jam di Jabatan Imigresen Malaysia, 5 jam di Visa Centre, 6 kali berulang-alik ke Bangunan Medan MARA Jalan Raja Laut, 1 kali ke Lembaga Hasil Dalam Negeri Jalan Duta untuk mematikan setem2 yg @#HW$$%, 1 kali ke MAS Airline Office yang tutup sehingga 14September atas sebab pemindahan lokasi sehinggakan grads kard tidak sempat dipohon (20kg pun 20 kg laaaa), 1 pink kamera, 1 trenchcoat , dan 1 boyish non-heels sneakers, saat yg ditunggu-tunggukan bakal tiba~~~~~

13 Sept 2009 2355 KLIA 0655 AMSTERDAM 13hour

14 Sept 2009 0955AMSTERDAM 1020EDINBURGH 1h25m

ps: tu je...saje je bwat dramatik :P hope everything goes well..inshaAllah

But this is how I'm feeling right now :0 :) :( -.-" :'(

Funny (maybe not so) encounters

2009-08-27T03:03:00.000-07:00

I was on my way back to KLIA from Langkawi the other day. I sat next to this nice English family (I was hoping for a scottish accent but alas..)of five- the blonde father, the brunnete mother, two blonde sons and one brunnete daughter. I sat next to the mother who was really friendly.

When we were half way through our travel, the stewardess gave us peanuts and buah kurma since it was the holy month of Ramadhan. One of the blonde sons was so excited when he got those peanuts and began eating them. The buah kurma given was the rather long ones so when the boy took them and looked through the plastic, he said to his little siblings in a rather excited tone,"Oh, they gave sausages!" And I was trying not to laugh out loud. I sort of covered my small laugh with a cough at the end. haha. Then, the parents corrected the boy saying it was dates. Later on, the boy tasted the kurmas and said,"I don't think I like it that much", and then,he throw it away.

And then today, I went to Pejabat MARA to take the financial statement from En. Khaizan for my visa application. At the lobby, I thought they were having an event but it was the H1N1 campaign where before anyone go up the elevator to all the MARA offices, their hands have to be sanitized. Then, I was stopped by the makcik at the pengawal counter she said sternly," Adik pakai selipar ye? Nak naik ofis tak boleh pakai selipar" . And I was a bit shocked (though it was actually my fault, wearing flipflops a.k.a selipar jamban to Bangunan Mara hehe), then I said, "huh..oh so tak boleh naik langsung ek?". She gave me the 'too bad sucker' look and simply said, "tak boleh".

Being me, well at least being me right now, I am just too tired to curse myself or the lady. Besides, it was bulan puasa (this statement always makes me annoyed because it's as if you can do all the dirty deeds during the other months)Anyways,...where was I? oh right being me, I decided to take out this frustration because not only I just travelled by car alone and got stuck in a jam for about one and a half hour to get there...haih... ok i handled the anger and frustration in stride with a short but sweet shopping spree!!! weeeeee~~~~~

Since the makcik said I cannot go up with selipar, I went to the Pertama complex(by the way Pertama complex is in the lyrics of Meet Uncle Hussain's La La La Kerja lah...pretty kewl..kinda like the Beatles and Abbey Road) next door and went to the nearest shoe shop where I bought a pair of boyish sneakers! yup yup you heard me sneakers! boyish! non-heels shoes!and then I terus pakai...heeee the Chinese girl selling the shoes was really nice..she ikat the shoe lace for me, nicely and i dunno...she just sounds soft spoken and seemed really nice.

haha so thanks to the bitter makcik at the lobby, I got myself a pair of shoes! hoorayyyyy!!!

Trima kaseh makcik!

:)

Beyond stupidity

2009-08-21T06:33:00.000-07:00

I've learned rather early in my life that life isn't perfect. You can make mistakes. You can cheat in a 1st grade exam and not just get away with it but also received RM50 from dad for scoring 100% in the test. Your teachers can be mean at you because they think you are such a spoiled little brat when all you did was acting as a 12 year old because you were in fact 12 at that time. Oh and parents can bicker in front of their children. Like I said life, family, and friends, they all ain't perfect. Parents are allowed to call their kids stupid and make them actually really feel stupid and hopeless even if you manage to get all the As in exam. See, an A does not have anything to do with stupidity. You are not stupid. You are only stupid if you are called stupid by someone else. If you can't avoid being called stupid when you are getting consistent As all your life, imagine getting a C now. What's beyond stupidity? I thought I'd never found the answer to that question. But sadly, I did.

Beyond stupidity lies shame and humiliation. (which actually mean the same damn thing but of course you wouldn't know because you are not very smart which owh by the way,also mean that you are stupid..ahhhaaa)

I guess what I'm trying to say is...I don't know what I'm trying to say. ugggghhh I am just so sad right now.

Wow this is by far, the saddest most pathetic post I have ever written but by far the most honest.

ps: I am trying so hard to conjure up any positive thought in my head but failed,miserably.

.:The Secret Code:.

2009-08-18T23:18:00.000-07:00

there was once this girl who said she would never marry for as long as she lived. then, one day, while shopping at a nearby market for apples and herbs, she met the man of her dreams, the Apple man. she swore that he was the most gorgeous man she has ever seen in her entire life. not only that, his politeness and kindness stole her heart in an instance.

the next day, she went to the market again. she looked for him at the fruit section. he was not there. her heart starts racing as she could not find him. she asked the Pear lady next to the apple stall where the Apple man went. the Pear lady answered "the Apple man died last night.there was a fire. his whole house Crumbled in flames." the girl's heart stopped. she could not breathe. she fainted. she woke up the next morning telling everyone in her family that she would never ever let herself fall in love again.

Actually, this stupid story is my way of saying how bored I am right now. But what lies behind this story is actually a dish that I actually baked.

I am currently listening to Taylor Swift's You're Not Sorry and if you buy her album, all of her lyrics are in lower case except few capital letters. These few huruf besar spells out a hidden code a bit more about the songs. I think that's really cool. Love her!

Anyway, by reading the stupid short story, can you find the secret code and guess what sweet dish I'm baking tonight??

I think a five year old can figure this one out.fast.

note to self: find something better to do.

REQUESTs!!!

2009-08-11T20:56:00.000-07:00

I have 3 cakes request this week yey!! It's been a long time since I baked.

Two Double-layer Chocolate Cheesecake and one White Chocolate Raspberry Swirl Cheesecake
coming right up! :D

Just to share.. this was the baby blue and white cupcakes for my brother's hantaran for his nikah in Kelantan. Sadly, I did not make them.. :( But they are simply gorgeous!

D-DAY: 10/08/09

2009-08-06T07:14:00.000-07:00

*10 August 2009*

Strength
Where it can be seen
Hidden in a near tomorrow
Where either or shall prevail
Hidden in either cheer or sorrow

Miles ahead
Beyond those mountains
Are still other peaks
Left for us to conquer
All are not for us to reach

Please dark
Let there be light
Promise to never forget the rain
For each hope could be ignite
Just to feel empty in heartless pain

-w.n.a.m.i.r.a.

A dIFFERENT kIND oF bLUEBERRY cHEESECAKE

2009-07-25T22:32:00.000-07:00

I was tired of the old traditional blueberry cheesecake so i decided to try this one.
A New Recipe! I altered a few recipes from the net and make it my own.

Bloody Blueberry Cheesecake

My 1st Jamie Oliver Recipe

2009-07-25T08:19:00.000-07:00

A Jamie Oliver Recipe

Chocolate Cookies With Soft Centres
(dlm die ade chocolate n white chocolate filling)

Back to Baking

2009-07-22T22:28:00.000-07:00

Double-Layer Chocolate Cheesecake :)

HOEDOWN THROWDOWN !!!

2009-06-29T04:40:00.000-07:00

Call me a loser or childish or even crazy, but I'm HOOKED on the HOEDOWN THROWDOWN!
It's the signature dance in the Hannah Montana The Movie! I L-O-V-E it!

It's simple. Anyone can do it! Well, if I CAN do it, obviously anyone can do it! Best giler!
Amat senang. Lagi senang daripada tarian piring or zapin or shuffle.

ok, maybe i'm a little too excited but it's fun. Even if you're not a Hannah Montana Fan, i think you'll enjoy it if you give it a go. And i dah berjaya khatam the dance in only half an hour! woohoo!

These are the basic simple steps ...amat mudah dan berkesan.

Pop it, lock it
Polka dot it
Countrify then
Hip-hop it
Put your hawk in the sky
Move side to side
Jump to the left
Stick it, glide

Zig-zag cross the floor
Shuffle in diagonal
When the drum hits
Hands on your hips
One footed
180 twist

and then a,
Zig-zag, step n' slide
Lean it left
clap three times
Shake it out
Head to toe
Throw it all together
That's how we roll

xfaham? tontoni video ini...cuba try test ! best!

Banyak tutorial video yg ada but i personally suke this one coz it's from miley herself and cepat tangkap.

Marilah!Ayuh, buat jangan tak buat! ala, bukannya anda ada benda lain yang boleh dibuat. Daripada tgk movie, makan, tidor, etc. baik buat the HOEDOWN THROWDOWN!

ps: umm, you may hate me but i honestly think Hannah Montana The Movie is better than Transformers 2.. (eventhough i dah tgk transformer 2 kali dah) ~my opinion

Tips For The Broken-hearted

2009-06-21T05:11:00.000-07:00

Well, it doesn't take a huge fight with your boyfriend that leads to a horrible breakup for your heart to be broken. What it takes is to give me friends for life who are hard to find and only to be separated from them after merely two years. Yes, my heart has broken.

AWW.... inilah jiwang dalam bahasa omputeh.... ;)

Back at home. all that i feel can be described in Aizat's song:

Sayu terpisah
Hikayat indah kini hanya tinggal sejarah
Berhembus angin rindu
Begitunya menya? terhidu wangian kasih mu ( i xdpt catch ape lirik tu so nyanyi slalu hentam macam ni je)

Hujan lebat mencurah kini
Bagaikan tiada henti
Kau lah laguku
Kau irama terindah
Tak lagi kudengari
Kau Pergi.....iii....iiiii
Pergi....iii...ii...iiii

miss my frens.

What do you do at times like this?

I must move on but before that, i have to shed away the pain... eeeewww jiwang omputeh lg...

I suke google "How to", biasanya i google How to Lose 10kg in a month? (btw, tak pernah berkesan), How to learn Japanese?, How to remove a pimple in 24 hours?, How to write a proposal?(serius..ni i bwat mase dilantik jadi secretary housetrip dulu2..haha klakar..mlm tu i cuak gile, i gi google..teruk kan...hah skang baru bleh cite tabiat buruk dulu huhu)and banyak lagi yang ngarut yang tak perlu diketahui.

So this is what i found,

HOW TO FIX A BROKEN HEART

1. Be gentle with yourself. I have no idea i have no idea what this means but what I did was I pampered myself. I did my spa-at-home ritual.

1st, the normal nose patch for the evil blackheads.

Then, there was the eye patch for the horrible eye bags.

*gambar tiada kerana terbuang paket tu. that was my last one*

After that, the Light Lightening Peel-Off Mask yang memang obvious tak efektif malah timbul sebiji jerawat lagi

Last but never the least, the typical Nail Buffer

2.You have to learn to say GOODBYE and MOVE ON. dah cakap.tak dek benda ajaib pun berlaku.

3. MUSIC. it helps soothes the soul. My pick would be 'Rindu Terhenti' by Tomok. Yours? Anything but "The World's Greatest" by R. Kelly..our batch song ...sedeh gile kalo dengar balik..

4.WRITING or JOURNALING. Poetry would be nice. and just BLOG about it. like what I'm doing right now.

5.Go out to movies. with someone. don't go out alone!

So far, I haven't had the time to go to the cinema because I'm busy either looking for hantaran baskets or finding the right cute little gowns for the flower girls. Tomorrow, my destination is Jalan TAR! to find kain untuk dijahit for our side punye reception. Besides, I'm broke. Can't afford a movie ticket.So sad. Kene tunggu allowance my brother masuk..heee

Instead, I opt to watch movie yang ade kat dalam laptop.

Movie No.1: A Cinderella Story (owh hotnye Chad Michael Murray) ~dapat lupekan chalet
Movie No2: Another Cinderella Story (owh hotnye Drew Seeley) ~dapat lupekan Sapphire
Movie No.3: Confessions of A Shopaholic (owh hotnye Hugh Dancy) ~dapat lupekan KYUEM
Movie No. 4: BANGSAWAN 2009 (owh hotnye Sapphire!) owh no... ingat balik masa2 indah di chalet, Sapphire, KYUEM and all my frens... :(

ISH... benci laptop movies....tak membantu langsung...hmmmphhh...tomorow nak pergi tengok movie yang betul2laa...

Verdict: My heart has not healed, yet. :( HELP!

Berkebun...ewwww....

2009-06-14T06:35:00.000-07:00

ewww... "Berkebun is so not me"... ini merupakan luahan seorang gadis bandar yang gedik tidak mahu menjejakkan kaki berkasut baru ke kebun milik keluarganya.

CHOP! sebelum anda mengutuk dan maki hamun gadis bandar yang gedik ini, baca dulu kisahnya sepenuhnya.

Sebab-sebab mengapa gadis bandar gedik tidak suka berkebun:

1. Ada banyak tahi lembu yang fresh. titik. tak perlu elaborate.

2. Kasut 'tomok' yang baru dibelinya terpaksa meredah segala rumput, lalang dan tahi lembu (rujuk no. 1)

3. Banyak kerengga. bukan yang kecil..ni yang besar 2 juicy2..sengatnya pun tak terdaya untuk ku describekan di sini.

4. point ini panjang skit.

Saya pulang ke rumah setelah hampir sebulan di kolej. Jadi, banyak perkara yang misteri di rumah.

Misteri pertama: Misteri Mikrowave Baru

Mak beli microwave baru yang lebih kecil saiznya tapi lebih cepat memanaskan bahan makanan. Takdelah misteri, cuma saya jakun sebab sudah biasa guna yang lama yang mmg sudah buruk n slow giler.

Misteri kedua: Misteri Hilang Baju

Saya ingin mencari baju yang saya tinggalkan di rumah. Tapi, bagaikan semuanya sudah tiada. Bagaikan dalam Hikayat Halim Deman yang mencuri kain layang puteri itu. Tapi, kisah saya tiada putera dan saya bukan puteri....sedih. Tak mahu saya beritahu mak. Nanti, dia akan cakap saya yang tak cari betul2. n selalunya, dia mmg betul. So, saya biarkan sahaja.

ok. flash forward keesokan hari.

Kami ke kebun di kampung saya di Port Dickson. Ini mmg rutin mingguan ibu dan adik sejak belakangan ini. (mulanya,saya agak pelik. both of them don't seem like the 'kebun' type tapi mungkin sebab mereka suka sangat makan durian. Jadi, dapat merasai buah durian hasil kebunan sendiri mesti lebih sedap rasanya). Selepas mendaki kebun itu ( kebun itu bukan tanah yang landai ye..mmg berbukit bukau (nasib baik saya tak pakai heels)), 'Misteri Hilang Baju' telah terjawab. Lihatlah.

Semua baju ( a.k.a 'Kain Buruk' menurut mak) yang menyaluti buah durian untuk menghindarkan segala haiwan perosak dari memakannya adalah baju saya! Baju saya! Hati saya pasrah melihat setiap baju yang pernah dipakai saya dahulu.

Jadi, persoalan di sini adalah....adakah saya kejam jika saya menghina perbuatan mengebun?? adakah saya gedik jika benci berkebun? huh? Jika saya (baju saya) dianiayai sedemikian rupa? kejamkah saya? isk...isk..*sob...sob*

Haih...mengeluh... tidak mengapa. Hati yang terluka ini diubati oleh satu-satunya ubat yang mujarab yang efektif dalam mengubati luka yang terpendam.

S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G!!!!!

Sepulangan dari Port Dickson, petang itu, saya terpaksa membawa adik ke Bangunan Abdul Samad untuk menangkap gambar dia dengan background bangunan bersejarah itu. Menurutnya, ini untuk projek folio sejarah PMR. note to adik tersayang: havent you heard of photoshop??? or even wikipedia??? haih...

tidak mengapa. sebagai kakak yang bertanggungjawab dan comel(tibe..), saya melakukan apa sahaja demi adik saya yang terchenta.... tambahan, dia belanja saya minum iced caramel machiato.. so lagi lah saya rasa bertanggungjawab sebagai kakak...heeee

Selepas bangunan abdul samad, saya yang pertama kali drive around KL tanpa adult supervision, memberanikan diri untuk drive ke Bangsar Village untuk mencari accessories for external dinner. yey dapat clutch satu! dan so far, saya dah beli 2 baju baru untuk mengganti baju yang telah menjadi penyalut buah durian di kebun. n more to come! yahooo....

Pantun buat hari ini:

Akibat berkebun baju jahanam
Berjalan ber-Shopping bagaikan terapi
Penyembuh luka hati yang terpendam
Sekarang saya sssssangat HAPPY!

Kesimpulannya, gadis bandar ini memang gedik dan wajar dikutuk dan dimaki hamun seiring dengan arus kemodenan agar dapat menjadi masyarakat yang cemerlang, gemilang dan terbilang.

Situasi.Biasa.Geram.Aneh.Kelakar.Harapan.

2009-06-11T07:03:00.000-07:00

Situasi biasa.
Saya baru pulang dari menjemput ayah dari LCCT. biasa sahajalah, dah memang rutin mingguan ayah. Hari khamis petang ke Subang dan Sabtu pagi pulang ke Langkawi. Setiap minggu sejak beberapa tahun yang lalu.

Situasi Geram.
Perut agak lapar. Selepas tol USJ, ada satu trafic light sebelum junction nak masuk ke jalan kecik-kecik untuk ke rumah saya. Di trafic light, queue kenderaan sangat panjang. Tidak mengapa. Sabar.Sabar(sabar 1/2 daripada iman. jadi jika sabar.sabar. 2x1/2 jadi 1..penuhlah iman saya...urrmmm ok lawak lame saya tuk hari ni). Selepas green light dicahayakan oleh OLED (Organic Light-Emitting Diode...amik ko, ni baru application of chemistry namanya), saya pun dah tukar gear dan turunkan handbreak untuk bergerak but alas,alack...lori tong sampah berwarna oren depan saya tidak bergerak langsung. Tidak mengapa. Sabar. Sejurus selepas itu, saya perasan beberapa kereta di lane kanan mula ingin mencelah ke lane saya. Sebagai pemandu berlesen 'P' yang berhemah tinggi a.k.a pemandu 'P'enakut sebab dah banyak kali aksiden yang tidak mahu cari pasal dengan pemandu lain, saya pun berilah laluan kepada kenderaan2 tersebut.

Situasi Aneh.
Pelik. Lampu sudah hijau. Tapi kenderaan lane kanan tidak boleh bergerak, sehingga terpaksa mengikut lane saya. Saya teruskan perjalanan sedikit ke hadapan. Kelihatan ada sebuah kereta statik di tepi tiang trafik light ber OLED itu. Dalam hati, "owh, ni mesti kes kereta rosak".
Eh, tapi aneh. Tiada orang pun keluar dari kereta itu.

Situasi Kelakar.
Apabila saya pass by the car, " eyh pak cik kat dalam tu tak nak cek ke kereta di rosak kat mane? duduk je kat driver seat buat ape?" apabila saya mengamati dengan lebih khusyuk...
YA ALLAH... pakcik itu tak bergerak langsung dalam kereta itu. Apa masalah pakcik itu?
Saya berkata," kene heart attack ke pakcik tu?"...saya tidak sempat menemui jawapan kepada persoalan itu kerana ada beberapa kereta di belakang saya dan memandangkan saya ini pemandu berlesen "P"enakut bila kena hon, saya pun teruskan perjalanan. Sesaat kemudian,saya perasaan kereta pakcik tadi yang disangka saya diserang heart attack ada di tepi kereta saya... hahahahaha rupanya pakcik itu sempat lagi tertidur tatkala menunggu lampu isyarat berOLED itu bertukar hijau. Kesian pakcik itu, mungkin baru balik daripada ofis dan banyak kerja yang dilakukannya hari ini dan lagi penat memikirkan kerja keesokan harinya. Kesian pakcik itu. Saya ni. DAH LAH tiada exam. tiada kerja. tiada tanggungan. Tiada apa yang perlu dirisaukan melainkan menunggu result yang bakal mengubah hidup saya serta-merta.

Situasi Harapan.
Saya berharap. berdoa. bertawakal. itu sahaja yang mampu saya lakukan buat masa ini... Ya Allah....hanya Kau yang mampu....

Misteri Tudung Hitam

2009-06-09T23:18:00.000-07:00

Semalam, sehari sebelum saya menjalani peperiksaan terakhir keesokan harinya, saya telah ke surau untuk solat maghrib. Sebelum mengambil wudhu', saya bukalah tudung dan meletakkannya di tempat biasa~palang tangga surau. Lepas selesai, saya pun naik ke bahagian atas surau untuk melakukan ibadah wajib. Selepas selesai solat, saya pun baca Yassin bersama seorang rakan.

Selepas itu, saya ingin berangkat pulang, jadi saya pun nak capai sahajalah tudung hitam saya itu, tetapi ... hati berbisik, "eyh, ni bukan tudung i ni.. mana tudung i?" Saya pun mencari di merata-rata tempat...di tempat pengumpulan telekung, di rak-rak dan juga di bahagian juniors sekali. Walaubagaimanapun, usaha saya sia-sia. Kelibat tudung hitam itu tiada kelihatan. Saya turun balik ke tempat mengambil wudhu' untuk menge'cek' sama ada saya tertinggal tudung itu di palang tangga tadi tetapi tiada apa2 yang tergantung di situ.

Aneh... mana mungkin sehelai tudung hitam yang langsung tak liplap dicuri di surau? ironi.... ahh...Husnuzon, husnuzon...mungkin ada yang tertukar kut tudung saya itu dengan tudungnya..iyelah tudung sama hitam, hati siapa tahu...tibe..

Owh, bagaimana saya pulang tanpa tudung? hah saya free hair je lah malam tuh... malam gelap kut, tiada siapa yang nampak.. huhu

gile ke? Mana mungkin saya buat begitu?! haih...farah hazwani yang berada di tempat kejadian berkata ada sehelai tudung yang memang hak milik kekal surau yang boleh digunakan. Saya pun guna.

Sepulangan ke bilik, saya buka tudung.. tiba-tiba, saya rasa leher saya gatal-gatal amat sangat dan ada juga rasa kesengatan. Apabila saya mengamati dengan lebih serius, rupanya ada segerombolan ekor semut yang mengelilingi leher ku... bukan calang-calang semut tau, semut api yang kecik-kecik. Bukan main kecik, tapi sengatnya memang berbisa. Tambahan pula, bukan sebijik semut yang gigit, satu pasukan menggigit ku...

Sehingga kini, saya masih tidak tahu ke mana hilangnya tudung hitam kesayangan saya itu... Kepada sesiapa yang rasa dia terambil, pulangkan lah kepada saya, biar hal ini terlerai secara damai...murah jer tudung tu... rm10 dari PKSN shah alam.

Ah...malangnya hidupku semalam.

Tapi.........

sekarang tidak lagi. Simple je.

EXAM.HABIS.SUDAH.!!!!

kalau dulu, tak tau nak study mechanics dulu, ke stats or chem ke.. tapi sekarang.....

Tak tahu la.... should I update blog dulu ke, atau tengok movie ke or tido dulu..ish tension nyer :P

Current mood: "tomoking" :)

Clueless

2009-06-08T05:09:00.000-07:00

Draped the colours of black, purple and grey
Beneath behold blue, pink and yellow which say
Mysterious but more mischievous
The words, the act of the malicious

Pretend or true to the feelings
or a mistaken signal
never known to heart
Left clueless when hearts break apart

Sad
There was only one heart
What was thought to be
indeed not never really

We ought to
but not, it will be odd
For two to be one
strangely,could not

Time has passed
Colours have changed
From white to red
to black then green

Green is here
will bring out darker
shades of sour
as the heart devoured
I am green, i admit
I must not,she is a friend
I am green, as i live
Try to forget, if I can

Top Ten Things To Do Before I die

2009-06-03T22:55:00.000-07:00

*the title is actually misleading.... but it just gave a more dramatic effect as a title.. that's what it is, just another title like so many others in here and out there...
I've been very good lately...I havent updated this blog in almost a month..BRAVO amira!

But today is Thursday, tomorrow is Friday and the day after tomorrow is Saturday and the next next Saturday is Award's Day which means I am going to leave this college...

A part of me can't wait to get this over and done with...I need a change in life.I need beginnings.I hate ends. And change is always for the better,always.period.

However, this place is something alright. It gave me more than I could ever imagined. But uggghh this is not a sad soppy post I want to write about goodbyes, atleast not yet. I still have three more weeks. I want to cherish the last moments of life here in this college. And there are still things I want to do here.

Before I go, I must finish this list of thing to do...think of this like a wish list like in the movie A Walk to Remember where that ailing girl had a 100 top ten things to do before she dies. It's like that but just without the cancer, the hot guy and it's not 100, it's just ten. :)

Top Ten Things I Want To Do Before I Leave KYUEM

1. mandi sprinkler kat padang(ok, standard ar nih, in fact i bet a lotta people already done it, but i havent, and it is MY list)

2. Ikut ami pergi new block bagi makan kucing2 tuh... i slalu tgk dari jauh and think to myself...wo... by the way i geli kucing so, it will be a challenge.

3. Pergi naik atas tangki kyuem tapi tak nak jatuh la cam alissa..tibe..

4. Star-gazing (more like dark-sky-gazing) at the field at night until muscom halau us...heeee

5. ....tak tau lah....tak sampai ten pun...saje je letak ten pun sebab top ten sounds better than top five...top ten macam aliterasi .. pengulangan konsonan dalam ayat..jadi lebih sedap didengari

i thought i had a lot more to do in kyuem, i thought my list will be so long until i cannot bear to leave in three weeks time...but my list to do at home is way longer... baking, shopping, movie-ing, tomoking and soooo much more.... cant wait! So to be honest, i can't bear and can't wait to leave kyuem... sure i 'll miss everyone so so much but i am ready for a change....

Pauline R. Kezer once said " Continuity gives us roots; change gives us branches, letting us stretch and grow and reach new heights. "

So, Let's GO and get outta here!!

owh wait...i still have three more papers to go...yikes!

titik noktah . . . . . . . . .

2009-05-11T03:42:00.000-07:00

ini titik noktah kita
sukarkah untuk
engkau fahamkannya
ini titik noktah cinta
sakitkah hati kau
kisah kita mati juga

sudah lama jantungku
berhenti berdegup
telah kuhilangkan mukamu
di benak fikiranku
sampai mata hati
tiada mengenali
hingga deria tiada merasa
tak mampu kasih berkuasa...

tak larat menanti
sudah penat berkasih
tiba masa kukemudi
kapal ku sendiri
kini kuberdiri
di atas kaki
tanpa tanganmu di sisi

titik noktah cinta
tak bermakna ku mengalah
titik noktah kita
detik ku berjaya
melepaskan kau
yang kusut tiada berarah
dan aku bebas
hanya berserah

selamat tinggal
lara hati
sayu kasih
selamat datang
rona ceria

owh bahagianya...

I Look Inside Your Lover's Eyes

2009-04-30T01:45:00.000-07:00

I look inside your lover's eyes
and wonder what she has for you
I look inside your lover's eyes
and wonder if she really wants you

You, don't understand the meaning of
You, don't know what to do
You, have no idea how to choose
Why oh why, can't you see?
I can be the better girl
I'm here to rock your world

One day, I look inside your lover's eyes
I see nothing but a long-haired chick with a tweezer
She couldn't look like more of a loser
She looked damn great but she seemed fake
So, when I look inside your lover's eyes
Can't see what you like about her
Can't see what makes her tougher

Owh when i look inside your lover's eyes
I see nothing but I'm mystified
I hate the feeling of knowing that I'm better than her
Yet you pick her
Yeah you pick her
Can't believe I don't even stand a chance
Because you pick her

I look inside your lover's eyes
Then I look into your eyes
That's when I realise
Something I
didn't before
You're nothing but a no good two timing guy
who only cares about his hair
Owh no wonder when I look inside your lover's eyes
no wonder when I look inside your lover's eyes
I see you.......

current mood: nak balik!!! can't wait for tomorrow... :)

mawar dan cendawan

2009-04-24T09:56:00.000-07:00

sebalik cendawan beracun
mawar merah tersembunyi
di kala mekar
penangan tiada diduga
di kala layu
dicaci maki hamun
kata orang
lemah tatkala tiada berlidah
kata orang
melampau tatkala bertegah

jika bersimpuh
digelar mawar bertopeng
jika bersila
digelar mawar berduri

mahu apa dari mawar?
harum kuntum tapi tawar
sudahlah
perlu senyum bila sedih
sudahlah
perlu tabah dan mengalah

ingin mawar mencari setawar
indah lagi nun jauh di sana
hilang malapetaka jauh bencana
namun mengapa mawar kembali
tahu tiada harapan di sini
oh hentikanlah cendawan beracun
masa makin suntuk
mawar makin buntu
masa sudah setuju
mawar sudah layu

mood: poetic n pathetic la plak...

Far

2009-04-20T10:36:00.000-07:00

warning: may or may not contain grammatical errors..i didn't bother to check.

Far

it feels like
a thousand three hundred and seventy two miles
away from you
it is going to be
another seventy seven years sixty days and five hours
till i get to see you
which all equals to the null possibility
of touching your hand
and watching you upfront
unbearably crazy of wanting
to witness a glimpse
of you

let alone hear you
never will i
as it's undeniably impossible
so i say
hey
why go through the trouble?
let it be just afar
i'll seat here
from far
as i've got you on my radar

mood: ntahla~

dulu music, now muzik...

2009-04-15T00:06:00.000-07:00

I find that in the 19 years and 349 days that i've lived in this world, i've always remembered my life by referring to certain phases or 'seasons' i'm going through... for example, around this time last year, i was so tergilakan david cook....owh 'always be my baby' is just super hot and sweet at the same time...and i remember one week in november last year during the AS exams, i was so obsessed with Shah Rukh Khan...lol

and now, I'm so into malaysian music!....it all started after watching tomok's 'Lalala Kerjalah' performance on oiam3..that got me interested in the song and the band that originally produced that song and ofcourse tomok..hehe.... and sooner than you know it, i fell in love with meet uncle hussein, bunkface, yuna, hujan, aizat, stacy and surprise surprise i can even sing to the lyrics of datuk siti's 'di taman teman'..haha...funny how cepat you like something and cepat you dont like something... these to me are like crushes...you know, like how fast you like someone and the next four months or the next day, you dont feel anything about him... :p.. anyways, back to the topic...

so these phase in my life is what i call my 'appreciation towards great malaysian music' season... it may be over next week, or month or even tomorrow, i'll never know... but until this season is over, i'm going to continue to enjoy the songs and the lyrics of such great talents...

and for the time being, this song is stuck in my head, not just because of the catchy soothing music but also the ever so sweet and meaningful lyrics..

Deeper Conversation by Yuna

is your favourite colour blue?
do you always tell the truth?
do you believe in outer space?
and i'm learning you...

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
does your hair flow side-ways?
did someone take a portion of your heart?
and I'm learning you

I've let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

And if you don't mind
Can you tell me all your hopes and fears
And everything that you believe in
would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
only you can make me...

deeper conversation
with me.....

does your name rhyme with mine?

mood: emo~ currently listening to faizal tahir's Bencinta too....emo giler...but *heart* it...

Lagu Tema Peperiksaan Percubaan

2009-04-05T03:40:00.000-07:00

Saya sudah bertekad untuk berpuasa blogging sepanjang trials tapi hari ini, sehari sebelum paper applied further, saya batal puasa....

i need to write this to keep going..it may not be my fave song but it's the song i need to listen to...

Lagu tema peperiksaan percubaan Further Mathematics Applied

The Climb

by Miley Cyrus

I can almost see it
(result further maths)

That dream I'm dreaming but
(fly ke UK)

There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
(further hampeh camne nak fly huh?)

Every step I'm taking,
(buat past year papers, tak tahu camne nak jawab)

Every move I make feels
(tgk skema jawapan)

Lost with no direction
(masih tak boleh faham)

My faith is shaking but I
(mmg cuak gile, camne nak jawab esok)

Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high
(saya mampu!)

There's always going to be another mountain
(lepas trials, real exam plak)

I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
(saya vs. further mechanics)

Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
(trials lingkup, a level buat betul2)

Ain't about how fast I get there,
(walaupun lembab skit nak tangkap ape pn. ju ajar)

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
(tak kisah keputusan yang bakal diperoleh)

It's the climb
(perjalanan dan perjuangan itu yang penting)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

note to self: pergi jumpa yana farz dan ili dayana malam ini utk serap sebanyak ilmu yg mungkin sebelum doomsday esok.... :(

of mucus and tissues

2009-03-19T18:53:00.000-07:00

Sains tingkatan 2

Topik: Dunia melalui Deria Kita

Deria bau

Organ: Hidung

Struktur hidung: bla bla bla

Mukus dalam hidung

Fungsi mukus: adalah untuk membantu menghindarkan habuk atau debu-debu memasuki terus ke dalam hidung kita.

Tapi bagaimana jika mukus pula yang berlebihan?? apabila mukus bertukar menjadi hingus...?

Membantu kah....????? dah berkotak2 tisu dihabiskan.... Bencinye!!!!!!!!

uggghhh post paling tak berfaedah saya....

current mood: berlendir

ps: usaha ke arah brownies 4 mama foord belum start lagi.. macam mana ni??

Bila sorang bertunang, semua bertunang...

2009-03-13T08:46:00.000-07:00

last minute update on my journey to engagement.... my checklist..

1. cupcakes :)
2. dulangs + kain lapik dulangs
3. bunga fresh yg sedang mendapat layanan VVIP ~separuh berada di dalm fridge dan separuh lagi berada di dalam bilik ber air kondition..
4. songkok the boys..mmg slalu lupe
5. cecair kanta lensa
6. sepek
7. bekalan makanan untuk perjalanan 7 jam ke kelantan..(sebut machang kang...hish isu sensitif buat masa ini *tibe emo)
8. baju
9. make-up
10. sirih junjung n lain2 yg i dh konfius nama2 nye..

everyone seemed to be in rush mode today except for baam, the fiance to be... he was cool calm n collected as he is all the time..

rasa macam semua orang yg nak bertunang..

bapak n adik did the packing n logistics..
we went shopping today for adik's baju n mum's make-up...

errr...siapa yang bertunang sebenarnya???? haha

saya dan mak mengambil masa lebih satu jam di gerai saluran itu... mencuba setiap warna liptik dari red fire kepada pink rogue hydra pe bende tah, dan setiap loose, compact powder yang ade dan juga blusher yg pelbagai dari tweed choral kepada tweed plum... sehingga muka mak dah macam clown... sehinggalah kami mejumpai liptik, compact powder dan blusher yg diminati...

amoi yg sedang memake-up mak itu sempat lagi bertanya:

u mau share dengan your mother ka?

kami mengangguk la...

amoi: owh buley buley...tapi kalo u (berpaling kepada saya) mau pakai, beli sendiri lagi bagus... coz ur mother is fairer...

dalam hati: tau la nak promote n persuade produk kepada org tapi takyah ar nak selitkan unsur coloursism...sensitif tau...

petang tadi, saya dan adik bertungkus lumus mencari rumah aunty yg kami order kapkeks itu... stuck kat traffic jam... adoyai... perjalanan dari ss19 ke usj4 dengan kereta yg sepatutnye mengambil masa yang same dengan perjalanan dari chalet saya ke dining hall dengan dua kaki telah mengmbil masa terlalu lama bagaikan menaiki teksi dari kolej ke tg.malim... haih... tidak mengapa... semua berbaloi dengan adanye kapkeks ini...

sejuk mata memandang...suke nye kapkeks bericing fondant itu... perisanya adalah choc moist with vanilla buttercream icing...ummmm yummy...

and finally we finished decorating the last hantaran which is the chocolates....

in the end, tema warna pertunangan berubah daripada black and white kepada black, white and red kepada apa2 sahaja lah... baru bertunang je kut... nanti untuk nikah kita buat lagi grand gitu... huhu..

current mood: belum mandi :P

takpelah besok pagi kene bangun kul 5 a.m...so bley mandi then...akan bertolak ke M pada jam 6.30am... hurmmm wish me luck u guys... macam i plak nak bertunang... teringin plak.. hah...da mule dah...

note to self: tempoh istikharah sudah tamat...saya sudah ketemui jawapannya... :)

Why are babies so cute????

2009-03-11T19:34:00.000-07:00

i.hate.babies.

statement di atas memang menunjukkan saya seorang manusia yang kejam dan wajar dikenakan hukuman sebatan 100 kali.

Walaubagaimanapun, saya akan menjustifikasikan kenyataan saya...

jam 3.00 ptg~ saya sudah bersedia dengan notes mechanics di depan kanta lensa saya... buku Mr. Dant di tepi bagi membuat latihan2...

jam 3.15 ptg~haaaaa.....ngantuknye....

jam 3.30 ptg~saya membuat kopi...ye rakan2, kopi pada jam 3 ptg... mengalahkan ratu kopi negara, chaletm8 shahidah deen...

jam 3.45 ptg~mula nak study semula

jam 3.46 ptg~aduhai ngantuknye.....

jam 4 ptg~ mak: mira, gi beli kuih jap...
saya: ala...mak jap eyh mira ngah stadi nih...
dalam hati: yey yey...tak yah stadi... bleh kuar ronda-rondi jap...

Sebagai seorg anak yang solehah, saya pun pergi membeli keropok lekor 2 ringgit dan karipap 4 bijik...

Pulang ke rumah...Selepas makan dan bersantai bersama adik dan mak, Saya sambung stadi dengan minda yang fresh.... daripada kul 5.30.... Momentum study saya amatlah mantap pada masa itu, ... soalan demi soalan sedang dibuat dengan penuh keseriusan... tiba-tiba....

tet~tet~ bunyi loceng rumah berbunyi... tet~ tet~ owh rupanya Mak Chak datang bersama Abg Syuk, Kak Jariah dan the baby, the enemy~ Qistina....

Abg Syuk merupakan Willy Wonka family kami... beliau membuat pelbagai jenis cokelat untuk dijual... memang businessnya semakin laris... jadi, bagi pertunangan abang saya, beliau menyesponsorkan beberapa jenis cokelat untuk dijadikan hantaran... ini dia cokelats nya...sebelum bakul hantaran dihias...

dan this is my favourite of all his magnificent chocolate creations... he calls it the LOLLY-CHOC...simply cute and delicious..

But, my main concern at that point is of another creation, a cute creation from God.. uggh... menyampah tgk muke budak ini... belum cukup setahun, dah pandai kenyit2 mata senyum2 dengan kepala senget bajet cute kat orang... I was supposed to study... i was at my optimum study level...

but, How can i resist?? how can i resist this energetic baby who just wants to merangkak all over the house...naik tangga turun tangga... ??? How can i resist a baby who would come to you and cubit2 ur pipi while smiling at you?? owh so cute...

Payah nak mengejar die... qistina sangatlah laju sebab itu semua gambar yg diambil blur2 belaka... aksi2 menangkap qistina menaiki tangga

urmmmm which one is the baby here????

owh senang je nak tahu~ the real baby is the cute one... and the not so baby is the one yang bajet cute... hehe

Haih...all in the days work... in the end, not much studying was done.... all because of this one 'thing' called Qistina...okay so i may not hate babies... as a matter of fact, i love them so much that i hate myself for not being able to resist them....

So i ask you... why are babies so cute?? why oh why....

note to self: machang in 2 days...haha baru sedar da engagement is on sunday,not saturday as digembar-gemburkan... everything seems on track... so hopefully semua akan berjalan dengan lancar di Machang... (haha teringat dulu, i mati2 ingat machang kat terengganu... pastu dah gaduh2 ngan abang n adik pasal nih, baru sedar itu Marang... not machang...hihi).....

3 more days to go... haih...

2009-03-10T07:44:00.000-07:00

Kalau anda berkesempatan datang dan melihat rumah saya pada hari ini, macam tongkang pecah... note that saya tulis 'rumah' bukan 'bilik' (bilik saya mmg tak dapat buat apa-apa lah) ...

Memandangkan saya lah seorang sahaja puteri Gusti dalam keluarga yang sudah nak separuh gila membuat preparation majlis pertunangan abang saya, kepenatan amatlah terserlah, tetapi keseronokan juga terpampang di muka saya tatkala menyiapkan hantaran-hantaran.

The first engagement in the family la katakan ~ masing2 excited, masing2 nervous, masing2 tak tahu apa yg hendak dibuat....aunti-aunti di kampung dah mula berbusybody....

"hantaran dah siap ke yah(mak saya) oi?"
tanya seorang aunty saya yang digelar CNN antara kami saudara-mara kerana segala berita baru,gossip sensasi keluarga kami semuanya dia tahu...

Tidak mengapa, kami sekeluarga induk (buat-buat) tahu apa yang kami lakukan...hehe

Setelah berdiskusi, bergaduh dan berbaik semula, director a.k.a mak dan co-director a.k.a saya telah menemui kata sepakat~ warna tema pada hantaran pertunangan ialah black and white...
yeah!

Kami ke pusat perkahwinan yang terletak di Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman di tengah-tengah bandaraya Kuala Lumpur pada hari yang sama perarakan menentang PPSMI ke istana dijalankan.

uggghhh....pada saat yang crucial dan tertekan sekarang, hanya pertunangan abang saya berada dalam benak fikiran saya..isu-isu lain tolak tepi ... kami pun meredah seluruh ibu kota mencari bahan2 yang diperlukan walaupun sesak dengan manusia dengan banners.....

uggghhhh...hampeh...setelah ke hulu ke hilir mencari bunga berwarna hitam untuk dipadankan dengan bakul-bakul silver yang dibeli bersama bunga berwarna putih, kelibat bunga hiasan berwarna hitam tiada kelihatan... merah ada, hijau ada dan biru? merata-merata... tak tahu kenapa...mungkin sekarang tgh musim warna biru bagi bakal2 pengantin...haih...

Konklusi hari ini: Majalah pengantin BOHONG...tunjuk lawa-lawa, promote kedai tu kedai nih, semua tak dek stok... haih...

Tidak mengapa, kami berdiskusi lagi secara damai kali ini dan telah come out with a new theme~ black, white and red....

red bukan chili red... more of blood red, merah kemaroonan la...
Jadi, kami pun membeli bunga-bunga maroon juga,,,

Sampai di rumah, kami memulakan kegiatan menggubah dan menghias hantaran...

Berbekalkan ilmu pendidikan seni visual sehingga tingkatan 3 dan 5 Majalah Pengantin di depan mata (walaupun, majalah itu bohong ..idea2 di dalamnya sangat kreatif), kami pun memerah otak untuk meghasilkan hantaran2 yang bakal berangkat ke Machang dalam masa 3 hari lagi... huwaaa...

Mampukah kami menyiapkan hantaran2 ini? hanya masa yang dapat menentukan...

But this is the outcome of our effort so far... work still in progress....

berselerak sungguh ruang santai kami...

ini dia hantaran berisi buah-buahan... buah2 itu untuk testing sahaja..semua sudah ditelan adik..

I fell in love with this glassy butterfly...

Banyak bunga yang berlebihan... mungkin boleh simpan for future use.. menurut mak, lepas ini, dia bajet dalam keluarga kami akan ada perkahwinan setiap dua tahun... hahaha macam ada 30 anak je boleh plak macam tuh...

Antara riben-riben yang dibuat dengan mengcopy sebijik dalam Majalah Pengantin

Gempita Mimpi Saya

2009-03-08T07:24:00.001-07:00

continued... from the post He's just not that into me...

" Kalau nak buat solat Istikharah, kalau main2 mana boleh", kata seorang yang agak arif hal-hal keagamaan ini.

dalam hati saya: Mana ade saya main-main... saya tulus ikhlas melakukan solat ini...saya tidak mahu benda ini menggangu benak fikiran saya yang kusut ini..

Gempita Mimpi Malam 1...(nak sebut malam pertama lagi sedap...tapi nanti ada yang salah interpretasikan pula)

Selepas solat Istikharah pada jam 2.45 pagi, saya pun tidur...

*.......*

jam 6.45...Subuh...

jam 6.55...Tidur lepas Subuh hehe

jam 7.15...terjage....

hmmmm kelip kelip mata....kerut kerut dahi...
hmmm ape yg berlaku??? hmmmm saya ingat ada beberapa muka muncul dlm mimpi saya...tapi satu nama pun tidak muncul dlm noodle brain saya ni....
fikir punye fikir...mmg x ingat... haih...
ape yg tak kene???

Saya berkesempatan jumpa anis chaletm8 saya di runway chalet,ceritalah kisah mimpi saya kepada anis...*jemma chaletm3 saya yang lagi satu,yang lagi naughty(hehe) pun ada di tempat kejadian mentertawakan saya "haha banban buat solat Istikharah..* jahatlah jemma..ntah2 jemma pun pernah buat untuk M...hahahahahahaha

ok...smbung cerita....

anis berkata," tak semestinya akan mimpi...mungkin dpt petanda dengan cara lain.... kadang-kadang dapat gerak hati..."

instinct???tak rasa apa2 pun...

cara lain??....ape cara lain?
mungkin kah petunjuk itu berbentuk heart-shaped cupcakes yang suddenly appear out of thin air ataupun belon yang akan turun dr langit masuk ke dalam tingkap bilik saya with a note dengan nama orang itu ...tak mungkin...khurafat namenye tuh.

tak pelah...boleh cube lagi...

Gempita Mimpi Kedua

Tak sempat solat sunat istikharah malam itu...tapi saya tidur awal....jam 11 malam sudah terlelap...

*......*

jam 6 pagi... saya INGAT!!!! satu muke, satu nama betul2 fresh dlm minda saya... OMG!!! TIDAK MUNGKIN!!!! tidak sangka dia... haha sungguh out of the blue... siapa yang saya mimpi?? hah mana mungkin saya beritahu...hahahaha... tetapi saya bukanla percaya sangat mimpi saya itu...mungkin salah satu memori saya mengacau ingatan saya semasa tidur....

Gempita Mimpi Ketiga

saya tidur di common room chalet sahabat saya beramai2...saya free blok 44,6,55...hehe joli moli la saya......tambahan pula, esok balik rumah bercuti 2 minggu stengah... :) relax jer saya tido malam itu without any worries ...saya pun mimpi.......

saya tak ingat bagaimana ataupun kenapa... tapi saya hanya ingat saya duduk atas kerusi..di hadapan saya, kelihatan meja berwarna kelabu (mimpi saya black and white kali ini)...lepas itu, atas meja...ada satu pinggan berisi maggi goreng mamak... saya baru nak sesuap maggi tuh... saya terjaga tatkala liyana Qisos kejut Subuh pagi itu...saya pun terjaga...

Saya pun kurang pasti...apa maksud mimpi saya kali ini pula?? saya pun tak tahu lah... malas nak buat teori lagi...

tapi, saya pernah terbaca dalam suatu article ...rasenye one of those reading passages hadiah khas dari hati ikhlas Mama Foord.. bahawa mimpi kita mempunyai connection dengan hidup kita, sama ada berkaitan dengan our daily life ataupun past life ataupun masa akan datang...

jadi, saya merenungkan~ daily life: takdek la plak saya makan maggi malam tuh....

past-life: saya mmgla pernah makan maggi sepanjang 19 tahun hidup dlm dunia ini, tapi takdek lah suka sgt maggi goreng ....

Therefore, maybe just maybe mimpi kali ini berkaitan dengan apa yang bakal berlaku dlm hidup saya.....Apa yang signifikan sangat sepinggan maggi goreng mamak dalam kehidupan saya nanti? Mentol dalam kepala saya bernyala ...*ting*... apa kata jika saya masak maggi goreng mamak malam ini? dan tengok apa yang saya mimpi malam ini... hahaha good idea....

di dapur.............

ketika saya memotongkan bawang dan mendefrostkan udang yang dah seminggu menyejuk dalam freezer..(kesian mereka)...mak saya sedang menjerang air (yeke menjerang air?? tak ingat perkataan yg sinonim dengan mendidih) ...suddenly.............

Saya: MAK! MAK! MAK! (suara saya menjerit sekuat hati)

Mak: Ape die? (dengan nada terkejut cam nak kene heart attack)

saya tunjuk ke arah periuk air yang sedang menyeksakan air tadi... ada tisu di sebelah periuk itu... dah terbakar tisu....pada saya, tinggi juga kebakaran itu, api naik sehingga tinggi satu high heel saya...pada saya yg sudah lama tak ke dapur,agak serius perkara yang berlaku di depan mata saya...

Respon mak saya? hah dengan selambenye... die amik tisu itu dengan tangan dan masuk dalam sink dan basahkan sambil berkata...

"La ni je ke?? aku ingat nampak hantu tadi... aish...boleh kene heart attack duk ngan kamu kat dapur ni... ...."mak berkata...

"Hahahahahahahha..." tetibe kedua-dua kami ketawa terbahak-bahak...

haih..macam ini lah selalunya saya di dapur..tidak pernah terlepas daripada perkara-perkara pelik lg aneh yang berlaku... saya rasa bodoh pula bila berada di dapur..at the same time mengkagumi sifat keselambaan mak yg sudah bisa tegal biasa di dapur..

Nasib baik.... kali ini masak, saya terselamat dari bahana minyak yang menggelegak...So,

ini dia maggi goreng mamak yang mampu saya buat... mak suruh saya buat sekali untuk adik saya..sibuk jer... dia mesti banyak mengomen...

siap ade smiley face tau :)
*kedua-dua timun dan urmm the other green thing dibuang dengan cepat oleh adik sambil menbuat muka 'eeeewwww' sebelum menjamah mee itu..

dalam hati: tak sabar nak tunggu mimpi saya malam ini... :)

Kenapa Hero Selalu Mati???

2009-03-07T07:57:00.000-08:00

Saya tak faham lah drama-drama yang heronya seorang lelaki baik, kuat imannya, dan penyayang perlu mati di akhir cerita...

Dah best dah drama yang saya tonton tadi... walaupun simple sahaja plotnya tetapi mampu menggamit perasaan saya...

jalan cerita:

seorang budak kampung khusyuk melaksanakan solat Subuh + seorang gadis bandar yg khusyuk berparti sehingga Subuh + arranged marriage + kehamilan gadis itu + hero kampung itu yg ofkos bila dah baik itu, setuju menjadi suami gadis itu juga untuk menutup malu keluarga si gadis (kinda not real...tak mungkinla wujud lelaki sebaik ini di dunia ini) + pelbagai kejadian = akhirnya, gadis itu terbuka hati + insaf + akhirnya, jatuh cinta juga pada suaminya = tetiba, suaminya, si hero kampung itu meninggal dunia 3 minit sebelum drama itu berakhir = hati saya pula yang terluka...

apekah??? perlu ke suaminya meninggal dunia??? tak bolehkah biarkan mereka live happily ever after...apa significantnya mematikan sesuatu watak beberapa minit sebelum tamat drama itu...haih...sedih la...

Tapi atleast saya mendapat satu pengajaran daripada drama ini...~ not bad la kene kahwin paksa... just make sure orang itu either teguh imannya ataupun kaya raya :)

my L.O.V.E revelation...

2009-03-03T06:03:00.000-08:00

i reveal to you.... my love, my one true love, for now....

a glazed donut YUMMY.... :) :) :)

He's just not that into me...

2009-03-01T06:16:00.000-08:00

Last Sunday, I was at home bored to death, but still exhausted from the family meeting bout my brother's tunang the previous day. So, I did my daily 'at home' regime...~EEEEEEEEEE-channel...ofcourse...

uggh it was one of those behind the scene of movies thing...really not interested... I want to watch E-news!!! atleast something about taylor swift or miley or jonas or even rihanna... anything....just anything... living under the coconut shell in lembah beringin,i'm deprived from real gossip... *sigh*

At first, i thought it was gonna be one of those typical romantic comedy that can never beat 50 first dates, Never Been Kissed, and Sleepless in Seattle.... it IS a typical romantic comedy from the look of it But somehow bits from the movie was not disappointing... it had loads of famous actors and actresses.... look!!!

Drew Barrymore.Ben Affleck.Jennifer Aniston.Justin Long(that dude from that bruce willis movie what something 4.0).Scarlet Johannsen(yaozaaa).Jennifer Connely.n few others very familiar faces like the guy who played Sydney Bristow's dear friend from ALIAS...and another girl who I thought was Dr. Cameron from HOUSE...turned out was not her...hehe

See...with a delicious ensemble like that...you probably are either plain cold or trying too hard to be macho not to watch it...

However, it is not just the cast that glued me to the idiot box to watch the behind the scenes special for full 30 minutes, it is also the storyline...more like complicated storyline... well its not that complicated.. what can you expect? there's a bunch of people. with each having a story to tell... compile it together and then some are related with each other... bla blah blahh blahhh... the way it present itself is pretty smart... i.like.it.

So, it made me ponder about the title of the movie... He's just not that into you....
it sounds familiar...i can relate to it..harhar... for example....

I.like.Jensen Ackles. yup the hotter one in Supernatural , with those abs...yaozaa...
but obviously he's not into me...duh!!!
see how i can relate to the movie... huwaaaaa....sedeyla....

I.also.like.milo.ventimiglia. as jess from gilmore girls..long before he was peter petrelli berambut nelnel...obviously not into me...thank god he's not into hayden pannetiere anymore...

I.also.like.brad pitt. but he's not into me...well, maybe he is but cuma die sibok kene jaga banyak babies...yup yup that's the reason why he can't actually show he's into me... ;) weeeee.....

enough yapping...but seriously how do we really know that someone is into you???There's no way to know for sure if a guy/girl likes you unless you ask him/her (and even then he/she could get shy and say no!)

so as usual, being a loyal googler....i pun google!!!!

jeng jeng jeng....this is the result...plus i tokok tambah to my taste...haha

How to know if someone is into you???

1.Is this person "accidentally" running into you in places where he or she knows you will be, such as at your desk?it is definitely one of the signs that he/she likes you...

2. Pay attention to your conversations with the person in question. Does this person show a special interest in having a conversation with you...if yes, there must be something...

3.Examine his/her body language. If he/she likes you, you may see that he/she rarely turns his/her back to you, often leans towards you, and also looks at you a lot.

4.Notice his/her eye contact. If he/she likes you, he/she may either look away quickly if he/she is shy, or he/she'll try to catch your eye and hold it or make faces. This can be uncomfortable if you don't like him/her.(haha teringat seorang rakan saya yang tidak dikenal pasti...ada orang suka dia...tapi dia tak suka orang tuh...lepas itu, die rase geli...tak boleh pandang pun muke si die...klakar klakar) When he/she's around you and he/she says/does something funny and everyone around laughs, his/her eyes will flicker towards you for a second to see if you laughed, too.

hah yang ini klakar habis~His/her pupils dilate if he/her likes you, but this is quite hard to pick up on, (jenuh sungguh nak menengok anak mata dia...kalau mata dia sepet...lagi susah..)and you might come across as acting strangely by looking that closely into his/her eyes. (memang gila la hang) If you're around him/her for a long time, it could be easier to pick up on gradually.

5.Watch his/her actions around other girls/guys and see if he/she treats you differently.

6.Watch for him/her showing interest in things you like and do

7.Pay attention to his/her friends. If they know he/she's interested in you, they might tease him/her subtly when you're around, hint to you that he likes you, or even try to find out if you like him/her. Study their reactions to your presence - do they smile? Do they turn to him/her? Do they smirk in a way that suggests they know something that you don't?

8.nak tahu dia suka anda ke tak....? buat experiment ini...macam buat chemistry practical plak...

theCLOCKtest:

Objective: To see if a guy/girl has been checking you out

Procedure:

1.abruptly look at the clock at the wall in ur class

2. then alihkan pandangan secepat mungkin and look at him/her really fast.

Hypothesis: If he/she followed your eyes to the clock, he/she was staring at you and was startled by your sudden movement that following your eyes is a reflex to them.

results: so i buat this test dalam kelas... nak try out... tapi dalam kelas tu sebenarnya takdek pun calon yang i ada rase ape2...tapi nak try je kan.. bukankah ilmu tiada gunanya jika tidak diamalkan????? wah kata2 penuh makna seorang ex-naqibat...hehe...

So, saya pun termenung ke arah jam bulat(ke petak ntah tak ingat heee)tergantung atas dinding... pastu tetibe pandang seorang ni....ummph dia x pandang pun saya...dah la tu tengah dengar khusyuk kepada seorang gadis ini...haih...hampa....

selepas itu, saya pandang lagi jam, dan abruptly pandang this one guy, dan rupanya bukan dia pandang saya, sebenarnya dia pun pandang jam bulat itu, tak sabar menanti kelas tamat gamaknya...haih...hampeh..

dan saya pandang la lagi jam itu,pandang punya pandang punya pandang tetibe... dan dah bersiap sedia nak pandang mangsa ketiga....

Wan Nur Amira, are you ok???

bedebuk...tersentak saya...cikgu memanggil saya...adoyai...kantoi...

tapi nasib baik, cikgu saya continue sahaja dengan pengajarannya...tak pula mengajukan apa2 soalan kepada saya... ppheeewww..

conclusion: sila beri fokus 100% dalam kelas...

9.Kalau betul-betul tak tahu tapi nak tahu, buat solat sunat Istikharah... mengikut kata Wany HK, selalunya solat ini dilakukan sebelum tidur...lepas itu, insyaAllah mudah-mudahan bermimpi..mudah-mudahan Allah akan memberi petunjuk/petanda, jika baik natijahnya, boleh diteruskan tetapi jika tidak, tidak akan dilaksanakan..

hihi teringat kisah seorang rakan saya yang juga tidak dapat dikenalpasti yang ingin tahu siapa jodohnya. dia buat solat sunat Istikharah, lepas itu bermimpi...niatnya ... orang itu bukan dari Kyuem...tetapi bila bermimpi...semua muka yang termimpinya adalah budak kolejnya...hahahahahahahaha klakar klakar.....wah jodohnya di kyuem rupanya...dahlah bukan satu jodoh yang dimimpinya, ramai plak tuh...hahahahahaha...

NOTE to self and others....: ni penting...saya panggil tips ini... tips kepada yang ss...syok sendiri...

10.Remember that if you like someone, you can sometimes misread their signals in the hope that they like you back. For instance, a guy /girl who teases you in an affectionate way may act like that towards everybody and doesn't realise that he/she's making you swoon every time he /she pokes good-natured fun at you!

So, inilah kerja saya bila tak dapat carik 'x'bar tuh ape bila A'x'bar=a vector...

note to self lagi:

Forget about this... A level lagi penting kut....
nak gi buat solat sunat Istikharah la malam ini... :)

Bila Bernada Sinis

2009-02-28T07:52:00.000-08:00

Saya ini tidaklah sinikal sangat...jaranglah saya kutuk orang depan2, selalu belakang2 sahaja...haha Saya dapati sejak belakangan ini terlalu banyak perasaan marah dan geram saya pendamkan...nak luahkan tiada tempat, jadi blog ini juga menjadi mangsa kejadian...

Sejak dua menjak ini,saya banyak mengeluarkan kata2 kurang manis terhadap orang especially last sem ini... bukan nak kata dulu saya ni baik tak pernah mengutuk orang lain...tidak,cuma kali ini, bertambah banyak lagi kutukan yang dilemparkan... dah orang yang kutuk, kita kutuk la balik... hasil daripada kelas taekwondo yang mengajar diri self-defense...hah bagus sungguh saya praktikkan di sini...

Dahulu, saya ni agak penakutla orangnya(sekarang pun..terima kasih bihah kerana membenarkan saya tidur di chalet anda kerna ketakutan tempoh hari hehe)... saya suka berdiam diri walaupun orang beri kritikan.. pernah suatu ketika dahulu, seorang yang telah menjatuhkan subjek further m3 mengajak saya jatuh sekali...saya katakan tak nak...

eh...ko hambik chemistry AND further pastu ko housecap... eyh ape masalah ko ha...eyh ko tau tak ramai housecap tak fly.....

tersentap..... ..... .....tak respon pun....biar sahajalah...

monolog dalaman waktu itu: sanggup kau cakap macam itu kepada aku...betapa sakitnya hati aku....rasa amat tertekan...hati ini rasa macam disengat 1001 lebah ...hati beta disentap...mengapa mau rampas putri beta? mengapa mau rampas putri beta? mengapa mau rampas putri beta...~tetibe...

So, diam sahaja saya pada waktu litu....

Tapi, sekarang saya tersedar betapa saya dah pandai mengkaunter attackkan kata2 orang...

suatu malam....saya berjalan pulang ke chalet dengan 2 rakan yang tidak dapat dikenalpasti, kami berjalan lambat menghirup udara segar... lepas itu, terperasan ada seorang gadis ini berjalan laju tercungap2 melepasi kami...sambil itu

dia berkata,"boleh mati jalan dengan korang"...okey mungkin ini tiada maksud apa2... tetapi jika anda kenal si gadis ini, dia ini memang outspoken...dan anda akan tahu sejak menjak dua menjak ni amat kiasu...dan selalulah dia memberi aura kekiasuannya kepada seorang rakan saya yang tidak dikenalpasti sebentar tadi..sampai dia pun tensen...pernah sekali saya terdengar perbualannya dengan rakannya. berbunyi,(adalah beberapa butiran/details yang ditukar demi merahsiakan identiti masing2)

rakan gadis: eyh u dah tanye *tut* nak join kelas tu ke petang ni?

gadis: dah tapi die terhegeh2 nak bagi jawapan...katanya ada fotoshoot apelah... kutnye antara photoshoot yerbook dengan kelas...kelas lagi penting...

mungkin benar kedua2 kenyataannya tentang bahawa kami pada malam itu sepatutnya berjalan lebih laju bergegas ke chalet untuk menelaah sampai mati dan mungkin benar juga bahawa kelas lagi penting daripada house photoshoot.... tapi it all depends on the individu.... jika individu itu nak meghirup udara segar sebelum pulang ke chalet dan menelaah, apa salahnya? jika individu itu punya semangat house yang tinggi, dan telah banyak berjasa kepada house, berjuta-juta kali lebih banyak jasa compared to you kepada ur house, apa salahnya jika dia ingin muka bulatnya dimasukkan dalam house yearbook foto??? apa salahnya????

mungkin saya terlalu terbawa-bawa dengan kenyataan dia ''boleh mati jalan dengan korang"... mungkin dia hanya bermaksud "korang jalan lambatla.fullstop." namun, mungkin saya terover-react, saya mengkaunter balik ayatnya dengan cepat...

"boleh mati jalan dengan korang"

~"matilah"...

mungkin kaunter attack saya tidaklah berbisa ataupun memaksudkan apa2 kepadanya...tapi saya yang berkata saya sendiri tahu apa perasaan saya tatkala menyebut perkataan 'matilah', bukan bermaksud mati secara literally, cuma bermaksud "mampus kau lah"...macam tuh la lebih kurang... atau dalam bahasa ieltsnya... 'whatver'... camtuh je lar... tapi whatever yang ada tanda seru la di belakangnya...menandakan emphasis perkataan itu di hati penyebut...what i'm trying to say is that... tiada yang bersalah dalam hal ini...mungkin ini satu hal yang kecil sahaja... yang menjadi isu di sini bukan kekiasuan si gadis...beliau ada hak untuk berkiasu especially dengan trials coming up.... tapi isunya adalah kelemahan saya sebagai seorang insan yang sudah pandai kaunter attack kutukan orang...

haih saya perlu banyak beristighfar...menenangkan jiwa yang berkerut ini... silap hari, perbuatan saya ini akan merebak menjadi suatu penyakit yang hanya memakan diri sendiri...

note to self:
relax..stay cool calm n collected...cuti nanti, gi madi pedi n fish spa... :)

KAPKEKS MENGGEGARKAN KYUEM...

2009-02-25T05:34:00.000-08:00

Current mood: HAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

Saya suka creative club. Saya suka cupcakes. Saya suka...sangat suka.

Memang setiap tahun Creative Club menganjurkan Creative Fair tetapi tidak pernah pula saya mengamati dan menghayati segala aktiviti yang dijalankan. Walaubagaimanpun, tahun ini berbeza pula. Tahun ini ada kelainan...ala macam AF sekarang setiap tahun nak adakan kelainan kezutan sana kezutan sini tapi same je saya tengok...ok tiada kaitan...

Anyway, tahun ini creative club telah berjaya merampas hati saya...saya bagaikan dibawa ke alam fantasi diberi peluang menyelami keajaiban dunia yang kelapan iaitu KAPKEKS!!!!

Kalau anda menggoogle perkataan 'cupcakes' di wikipedia... anda akan mengetahui bahawa kapkek ada sebiji kek kecil comel lote di dalam kap. apa yang ajaibnya? apa yang speselnya kek dalam kap.... mungkin adunan membuat kek kecil ini tiada beza dengan kek besar. Rasa pun lebih kurang sama. Sebenarnya saya kurang gemar makan kapkek espeseli kalau icingnya yang manis lagi tebal melebihi kek dalam kap itu.

Tetapi, apa yang membuatkan kapkeks dekat di hati saya adalah keunikan corak dan colour yang digunakan....the deco.... so nice!!! Sejak tahun lepas, selepas mengorderkan kapkeks untuk burfday bonda tercinta, saya sudah addicted dengan blog2 kapkeks yang cantik2 belaka....

Mari kita mengamati kapkeks yang didecokan saya pada malam Creative Fair mlm tadi...
ps: ok memang la tak lawa sangat pun tapi kepuasan hati pendecorator kapkeks ini yang tiada tolok bandingnya........ Saya paling suka yang biru merah ni... Sprinkles of Love
Pink Delight

Yellow Mellow
kapkeks saya , tapi saya rase satu je... yang lain diberi kepada org lain..kan giving is better than receiving....:)

Pelakon tambahan kammy...comel la....kapkeksnya bukan orangnya huhu

Jika anda perhatikan dengan teliti, icing itu berwarna hijau..
saya campurkan biru+kuning=hijau... tapi coraknya tidak menjadik hehe...

harap2 ada lagi malam2 indah seperti ini pada masa akan datang... Kalau kreatif fair setiap minggu lagi bagus....Saya suka....sangat suka...

Current mood : Still HHHHAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYY..... :)

Hari2 Sunnah...dan MALAM2 Sunnah

2009-02-21T01:27:00.000-08:00

Dari 17 Feb hingga 20 Feb 2009, Days of Sunnah telah melanda KYUEM..
To be honest, i takdelah menghayati sangat hari-hari Sunnah sehinggalah pada suatu tengahari, saya dengan hati yang gumbira on the way pulang ke chalet terlihat suatu notis yang comeyl..Di tengah2 kecomelan itu, kelihatan nama saya terpampang jelas...

Our Last Usrah to all Naqibats...

owh....

dlm hati saya, x sangka dah last usrah, mungkin sepanjang saya jadi naqibat, mmg tak rasa pun macam naqibat~mungkin kerna saya tak melaksanakan tugas dengan baik...tapi saya pergilah juga usrah termasuk briefingnya, at least membaca handouts yang diberikan oleh cik nova adila. yang banyak membantu saya adalah cik dalila rakan seusrah saya... iyelah, ilmu keagaaman saya agak limited~ tgh belajar la ni. cik dalila yang banyak memberi input kepada adik2 usrah kami... saya paling tidak pun membuka dan menutup majlis je lah...huhu...dan buat bising sajelah... hehe *sory dalila*

Selepas Maghrib, selepas makan talam pada hari khamis..

Di tengah2 kebusy-an dan kesesakan di bahagian girls musolla, berjumpa dengan adik2 usrah plus dengan 2 pelakon tambahan usrah saya~seorang mmg kerap dlm usrah saya, cik bihah bowler dan seorg lagi yang kerap buat bising kat telinga saya, cik aaainnnaaa kamil.... saya dh mula cuak,

" Mana Dalila?"...

seorg adik usrah saya berkata," kak dalila ckp die sakit"

"hah, sudah...dah la briefing ptg tadi saya datang lambat...saya baca handouts tuh ala kadar sahaja" bisik saya yang mula berpeluh di bawah kain telekung putih yang ingin dihantar pulang utk dibasuhkan oleh mesin pembasuh LG keesokan harinya...

dari suatu sudut, saya ternampak kelibat Dalila...

yey!!! Alhamdulillah syukur nikmat...~bisik hati kecil badan besar ini...

"Dalilah....." belum sempat berkata apa2...saya sudah nampak kelesuan muka dalila...
kesengauan sedikit suaranya...

"rase kurang sihat lah, nak balik chaletla...sory...bandung korg teruskan lah ye.." lebih kurang macam tuhlah dia berkata...

owh.....

tapi tidak mengapa...sebagai seorg naqibat yang sharp,berdedikasi dan tangkas menempuhi segala cabaran yang dihadapinya~~~
saya segera mencari rakan usrah yang lain...heheh...saya nampak Liyana QISOS bersama aina kamila sebentar td...

"Yana!! join kitorg liyana...pls..." kata desperate naqibat ini...

"okeyh..okey.."...Liyana membalas dengan senyuman...

yeye!!!! selamat!!! mission accomplished! ~bisik hati ini...

Seperti biasa, kami memulakan dengan the thing I do BEST as a naqibat...

"Kita buka majlis dengan UmmulKitab Al-Fatihah....."

~Al-Fatihah~

"okey Liyana...teruskan ..." hahaha kejam kan saya sebenarnya... tapi sebenarnya xdelah kejam sgt... cuma saya bercakap ala kadar je di usrah...buat lawak,ketawa je berlebih dgn adik2 usrah saya yang sporting abis... *terima kasih kpd plakon tambahan usrah ketiga iaitu skyn yang memberi kami 3 dunkin donuts..huhu mmg saya merestuilah anda jdk vice hsecap topaz...hehe...* ps: skyn bayar royalti lebih sket promote name u kat cni..:P

Tajuk perbincangan usrah kami : Sunnah (duh!)

Diskusi kami berpanjangan sehinggalah kami come across Sunnah sebelum tidur...

Biasalah, berzikrullah sebelum tidur, kibaskan katil sebelum tidur...Subhanallah 33x, Alhamdulillah 33x, Allahuakbar 33x dan kalimah2 toyyibah(btw which saya baru tahu it means kalimah2 yang baik2 belaka).

Saya menambah dalam diskusi kami dgn lagak tahu menahu je,
" Jangan lupa baca ayat Kursi sebelum tidur"

pastu saya bertanya kepada rakan2 usrah saya,
" eyh btulke lepas kita bace ayat Kursi, kita sapu / usap2kan seluruh badan"

mereka mengangguk... saya menambah lagi..
"pastu kita sapu keliling katil kan???"

mereka menjawab," eish, mana de.."

Liyana bersuara," tak payahlah...xdek lah smpai sapu2 katil kita,just badan je"

owh....

hehe teringat pada zaman saya form 1 dulu, masa baru2 masuk MRSM Langkawi...

*flasback starts*

Saya masuk agak lambat...rasanya 4th intake kut pada bulan April 2002...yelah saya taklah sehebat 1st intake tuh...tiba je nak emo...hehe

Di Mrsm langkawi, satu bilik normal 4 org...Tapi memndangkan kami ni masuk lambat, bilik semua sudah penuh, pihak atasan menghumbankan kami 6 budak baru di bilik TV yang kosong ketiadaan TV...

Minggu pertama: homesick sepoi-sepoi bahasa
Minggu kedua: homesick tahap dewa
Minggu ketiga: 'Hantu'sick...

Iyalah bila sudah lama skit di situ, mulalah mendengar cerita-cerita kurang enak ttg kejadian yang berlaku di asrama itu... Tak sah lah kalo satu sekolah asrama itu tiada cerita mistiknya yang tersendiri......

Kami keenam2 penghuni bilik TV itu mula takut cemas cuak... smpai ada yang mintak balik rumah satu minggu (bukan saya, serius bukan saya)... haih sampai kami 5 org yang tinggal kena baca Yassin di setiap penjuru untuk pagarkan bilik TV itu pada suatu malam... mmg setiap malam saya pun baca ayat Kursi sebelum tidur, diusap2 seluruh badan dan juga diusap saya keliling katil...takut punya pasal..dengan harapan katil saya juga dipagarkan...

Aneh sungguh tatkala ketakutan menggangu jiwa ini.... Apabila difikirkan kembali, selama sebulan yang kami penghuni bilik TV itu dilanda musim ketakutan hantu dan selama setahun berada dalam bilik TV itu, tidak pernah sekali pun berlaku kejadian yang tak diingini...
Alhamdulillah...

*tamat sudah flashback*

Berbalik kepada malam selepas Usrah hari Khamis, malam Jumaat itu..
Malam itu rasa teramat free, mungkin kerana keesokan harinya saya percuma block 44,6,55...
cuma perlu ke assembly sahaja...hehe jgn jeles~

Saya pun masuk tidur agak lambat,saya di common room mengedit photo chalet yang perlu dihantar esok...

Jam 1.30pagi~Jemma dah tutup lampu tengah....keadaan mula sunyi...

Jam 2.30 pagi~ saya masuk tidur...lampu bilik sha dah tutup menandakan memang satu chalet telah tidur..

Jam 2.45~ saya mengibas2 katil...teringat apa yang dikatakan semasa usrah sebentar tadi.. mata saya mula meliar ke semua sudut bilik... atas bawah kiri kanan... tak jadi nak tutup lampu..

"Tak pelah malam ni biar on je lah lampu" dalam hati saya..yelah nak gtau sape lagi??

hati dah mula takut...
Saya pun baca Ayat Kursi cuma kali ni saya usapkan badan sahaja...tak diusap keliling katil..
tapi kalau ikutkan hati yang dah cuak ni, nak sahaja mengusap seluruh katil sebagai penenang hati...

mulalah tidur....tapi kali ini,saya tidur ikut sunnah~ berbaring sebelah kanan tangan kanan bawah kepala, lutut membengkok dan tidak meletakkan kaki di atas kaki yang satu lagi...

Alhamdulillah...setelah 30 minit tidak boleh tidur kerana merasakan bagaikan ada 10 pasang mata melihat saya, terlelap juga akhirnya...

Jam 9 pagi~ alamak....Subuh...Ya Allah....

note to self:
ikut Sunnah ikut juga...jangan smpaikan leka dan lupakan yang wajib...

Berhati-hati Bila Menggoogle...

2009-02-15T10:20:00.002-08:00

Salah satu tabiat saya (tak tahu sama ada buruk atau baik), saya suka menggooglekan nama orang termasuk nama saya sendiri. Semangat ingin tahu terlalu kuat untuk dinafikan. Ada juga unsur2 saspen yang membuat jari-jemari ini gatal menaip nama di google search.

Suatu hari di RC, saya telah menurunkan ilmu menggoogle nama orang ini kepada sahabat saya nor liyana farzana...

Yana Farz: Bandung, i boring nih...I'm not in the mood for further..Jom jalan2...

Saya yang tak pernah menolak pelawaan seorang rakan atas sebab saya seorang kawan yang baik bukan sebab memang saya tak pernah ada mood utk buat homework Dr.Bano, saya pun ajak yana main tenet kat rc..
Keadaan dlm bilik yang dipenuhi komputer perisisan MAC itu sgt sesak dibuat..Ape ke jadah satu kyuem free blok sekarang juga?? bisik hati yg tulus ikhlas nak main tenet ini...

Kami berdua berjaya mendapatkan satu komputer...oh well, sharing is caring...

Saya: Yana, you pernah google or yahoo! search ur own name x?

Yana: (dengan ayat bernada baget innocent)... tak pernah...adeke org buat camtuh

Saya: I selalu buat bende nih.. Jomla...kita buat...

1st name kami google ialah Wan Nur Amira...
So yang keluar...jeng jeng jeng~ nothing yang stands out. Just a couple of friendsters and facebook, none are mine. Cuma satu sahaja iaitu blog ini... Memang x fofular lah insan kerdil(arguable) ini di world wide web..

Kami teruskan perjuangan kami menggoogle nama orang. Next up, Nor Liyana Farzana..
the results were boring~few facebooks and friendsters and bla bla..
Tried to change it to Liyana Farzana ~still boring!
Selepas itu, saya googlekan Liyana...

Result pertama: Liyana USA TOUR 2009...

apekah?????? hah?

Tergelak terbahak-bahak kami dalam bilik komputer tuh sehingga mengundang beberapa pandangan ke arah kami, mostly juniors (arh..tak kisah la, kitorg seniors huahua...ceh bajet berautoriti)...

Saspen punye saspen...saya menekan hyperlink itu... ini lah hasilnya....so this is LIYANA!

hahahahaha terguling2 kami gelak lagi... Apparently, Liyana is an African band that creates a signature Afro fushion blend through its melody, rythm and harmony...
Set aside the humour of this discovery, Liyana the Band is pretty darn impresive... Although the members of LIYANA live in remote places all over Africa, they share the same hopes and dreams~and their music tells their story like it is...
And they are on tour in the US... BRAVO LIYANA!!!
InsyaAllah nanti si Liyana Farzana nih pun fly ikut the Band...buat LIYANA UK TOUR 2009 plak..heheh...

Dan pada hari ini, saya pun menggoogle lagi! this time sebab nak cari blog bapak saya yang telah lama terkubur..teringin plak nak baca puisinya.

carik punye carik..saya taip Rahmat Haroun... keluar "Did you mean "rahmat harun"??
eyh rase cam nak cakap je kat google ,"aku taulah nama bapak aku sendiri ape"... tapi saya bersabar..tekan jelah rahmat harun blog... pang....terkejut beruk saya tgk blog "bapak" saya...manakan tidak satu gambar yang mengindicatekan itu Rahmat Harun amat mengejutberukkan...

*rahmat harun*

Saya sudah tidak mengenali ayah sendiri...ini amat mendukacitakan... Mana mungkin mamat berjiwa reggae itu ayah saya?? saspen saspen...baru miggu lepas saya berjumpa dengan ayah saya... takkan rambut dah panjang macam itu... so, carik punye carik akhirnya saya dapat tahu bahawa ada dua rahmat harun yang berkecimpung dalam arena yang sama......

haih.... lega hati ini .... jadi, pesanan saya kepada kalian yang curious nak tahu siapakah anda di mata tenet ini... googlelah nama anda dengan berhati-hati...jangan percayakan sepenuhnya search engine itu...

kelakar sungguh pengalaman saya menggooglekan nama kali ini... entah apa lagi benda2 yang menarik yang bakal saya temui pada masa akan datang...

Anda tunggu apa lagi?? google jangan tak google...

Abis DOE Skang LSE...

2009-02-15T04:06:00.000-08:00

*sigh* ever since I'm back from doe just now, i was and am sighing the whole time..exhausted......all the limbs in my body is either numb or feel as if there's 1000 needles poking at it especially my feet..the thought of classes tomorrow is definitely not pleasing at all...

I was super pleased before I started the DOE journey yesterday because i finally got an offer that i really really wanted...LSE....but there's a catch.. they want AAA excluding economics... As much pleased i was, my heart dropped upon reading that offer..

AAA excluding economics means that I have to get an A for Further Mathematics...
Only if you were me, you would know that I sort of gave up on further m3 since last year..
I'm not sure why...probably because I couldn't cope with it...everyone in the class seems to understand everything... i felt alone in an unknown world...I felt small(a hyperbola hehe) in the big classroom...I actually thought of dropping this subject...BUT NOW, that is not an option...

So now, what awaits me are lots and lots of studying and pure hardwork...
No more playing around, gossiping in the middle of the night (doubt this will stop)...
But just basically I NEED TO STUDY....

I never thought my parents cared whatever I got... before this I told them that I got four university offers...they were like "ok good."fullstop.
But yesterday, they made it known to me that they had high expectations of me getting into LSE..

Mak: Baguslah...CONGRATS...dapat jugak.... lepas ni kene study leklok
Bapak called...(agak jarang lah die nak call): I heard u dapat LSE...baguslah...
My big brother sms-ed me during DOE:
Baam: Amira, tgh wat pe? Mak ckp amira dapat LSE ek? Congrats!! bile dapat tau?
~~~~:hehe tau pun kene stadi... stadi elok2...kla baam nk g keje ni...bubbye..

*sigh* again....
Now, I really need to study.fullstop.

Our Secrets...

2009-02-12T03:50:00.000-08:00

*mase sekolah dulu saya selalu gak write poems, sajak or syair...dulu konon nak jadik cam my dad tapi nak buat camne sikit je kuah tumpah kat nasi...so taklah berbakat..
but some how today i feel like writing this...a feeling that have been bottled up for far too long, an unnecessary feeling pun...

Our Secrets

six took steps
along the way
waiting for rest
reaching for what may

we discover secrets
of some truth,lies and care
it seemed so simple
private but bare...

i for one unsure
the line of secrets
they told me
no doubt forgotten
in a week's time
there'll be no worry

but alas alack...
(through a third person)
it was found
but not what it was
not even

the secret the name
of this poem
remain untold
like a riddle hard to crack
like a needle in a haystack

let the line of secret be
whatever it was to be
i for now am sure the secret
is a truth no more
for i have seen the lie
and made up my mind

*by the way, this poem ade tempias poem The Secret by Denise Levertov...
but i made it my own...my own little story....

One Goal Achieved !

2009-02-10T19:43:00.000-08:00

After weeks, days and nights preparing for Bangsawan, all that came to an end... malaslah nk mengomen pasal bangsawan kat cni...biarlah blog2 lain...So drpd kita menensionkan diri membace bahan bacaan yang kurang menyenangkan..lebih baik feast your eyes (tu je yang boleh) to these pictures below...It will make you happy! well, atleast it made me happy...huhu...

This was my Weekend Baking Adventure!!! the bangsawan aftermath...

Saya betul2 nak balik after Bangsawan tapi bukan sebab nak lari menyedihkan diri (mmg puas hati sebenarnya dan amat bangga dengan sapphire),cuma nak melepaskan segala penat lelah saya selama ini... haih nak balik rumah weekend tu pun sikit punya susah... sebab nak kene angkut Smoke machine yang digunakan dalam Bangsawan Sapphire ( alah yang menang best technical effect tuh...hehe nak jugak...sah kena kutuk riak pasnih :p) dan juga 2 industrial fan yang besar gila yang disewa... sampai kena naik lori..

Thanx to aaaainaaaa kamila's dad yang ade lorry, kami berdua dapat pulang ke rumah dengan selamat..Alhamdulillah... 1st time naik lorry menarik btul....

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sampai di casa tercinta.... saya mmg bertekad nak memenuhi cita-cita saya membuat kapkek...
selalunya, saya kerap melayari blog2 cupcakes and order je daripada mereka...
sekarang, saya wan nur amira binti rahmat bertekad untuk menjadi pembuat kapkek terunggul masa kini... tis is my tyme to shine!!!!

tapi... 1st attempt...hancus.....
i tried using the brownies recipe and letak dalam kapkeks but i dont know why tak jadik... die tak kembang...kapkek tuh menjunam ke bawah macam kawah asteroid...tensen i dibuatnye...
coz i read on the internet that for cupcakes, you can use any cake recipe and just fill 3/4 of the cup... in conclusion, do not just simply google and trust it...ni lah padah nye...

disaster...

and so, in a more proper attempt, i used a REAL cupcake recipe but vanilla butter flavour.... n eureka! JADIK!!!!

The FIRST batch!!

Tetapi sebenarnya, tujuan sebenar nak baking ialah saya nak buat blueberry cheesecake atas permintaan kapitan...dan sebagai buah tangan kepada Bangsawan Sapphire Committee yg telah berhempas pulas untuk menjayakan pementasan 'Bicara Takdir Berbisa'....

Ini dia pembikinan blueberry cheesecake...

Blueberry cheesecake ini siap pada jam 12.30 malam...nasib baik adik tengok MU lawan...adelah teman bukan mesra,tapi teman mengutuk kek saya....

ini lah perbualan saya dan adik yang mmg lovey dovey... bluek....

Saya: adik, kakak nak bawak balik cheesecake ni and the cupcakes... tapi akak tinggalkan lah for you and mak...

Adik tercinta: kakak, kalo kakak tinggalkan 5 bijik kapkek kecik tuh kat rumah ni pun konfem x abis....bawak je lah balik....

sebagai kakak yang matang dan rasional, saya bersabar sahaja lah dengan kenyataan adik tercinta...

Saya: bengong ar adik nih...(sambil pegang senduk nak pukul.....eh, *dont try this at home*)

Adik tercinta: hahaha....(berlari2 anak ke arah ps3 yg menanti untuk dimainkan...)

selepas itu, saya pun sambung baking adventure saya setelah tersidetrack sebentar tadi...sekarang the moment i've been waiting for...

ICING!!!!

Saya buat 3 kaler jer...sebab beli 3 food colouring je~ blue,rose pink and apple green....

MY FIRST CUPCAKE WITH ICING.... teka ape die......

it's a smiley face!!! haha i know tak jadik...
but it gets better with this heart-shaped cupcake...awww so sweet....

The thing that i really nak buat is the SAPPHIRE HOUSE OF GLORY themed CupCakes!!!
so i tried...did i succeed...let's see step by step...

1.arrange the cupcakes

2.put icing selang-seli biru

3. jeng jeng jeng cupcakes for Sapphire Bangsawan Committee all DONE!

more pictures of the Sapphire Cupcakes..

I also made cupcakes for my mom and brothers...

buat mak...

buat baam...
s

buat adik tercinta yg gerenti tak makan...

for j.lo and syahirah...

more cuppies by me....

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at last, i have fulfilled my dream of baking cupcakes... eventhough ade minor mistakes...
but lessons learnt!...more cuppies to come in the future,hopefully...

sincerely yours,

LUPA DARATAN ! ! ! ! !

2009-02-04T07:59:00.000-08:00

Ampun tuanku sembah seribu ampun tuanku...

Ya Allah masakan saya lupa akan asal usul hamba...

Leka akan kesibukan duniawi...

Sampai alpa akan hal-hal yang bermakna dalam hidup hamba...

Ya Allah masakan hamba lupa akan minat hamba terhadap BAKING!!!! huhu

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berada di KYUEM bermakna tiadalah perkataan baking dalam hidup saya..
bangsawan sahaja lah berada di mata fikiranku...

tapi aritu sempatlah saya berjumpa dengan seorang baker di subang jaya semasa Chinese
New year holidays....beliau adalah kak lea... specialtynya adalah CUPCAKES iaitu matlamat ku...Saya berkesmpatan ke rumahnya untuk mengambil tempahan saya iaitu B-day Cupcakes For Petsib saya HADI!!!....boo... hehe

Ini dia kapkek hadi..bertuah sungguh dapat petsib mcm saya nih..hihi

* Football themed CUPCAKES *

* amboix3 khusyuk masing2 melantak kapkek tuh*

*HAPPY BURFDAY encik Amirul Hadi Azlan*

* Tutorial KAK INA = ONE big HAPPY family*

*penat2 investigate...baru dapat tahu football club kegemaran hadi adalah Barcelona ( mula2 ingat nak letak jersi messi no.10 or sumthing like that but tak sure fave. player die... so bwat logo instead) *

So, this is the closest I get to the baking experience...walaupun x bake, merase org bake pon jadik lah...hehe...

Confessions of a Guilty Driver : "THE ACCIDENT"

2009-02-01T13:27:00.000-08:00

Tajuk di atas memang macam tajuk movie kan...
Memang macam movie pun cerita yg saya akan ceritakan kepada anda...

Cume yg membezakan kisah ini dgn movie di pawagam berhampiran anda adalah kisah ini BENAR-BENAR berlaku....in fact, terlalu benar sampai nak ceritakan kepada kalian pun amat susah sekali...

Masa pulang ke Kolej Yayasan UEM pada 5 januari lalu, saya ingat dapatlah saya melupakan tragedi november itu... Tapi walaupun yg mengetahui tentang kisah ini hanya sedikit sahaja, tetapi tersebar sudah kisah ini...

1st week balik terserempak ngan potchek (bukan name sebenar) di kaki lima depan musolla...

Potchek(masih bukan nama sebenar) : Ban2(juga bukan nama sebenar), i dengar u accident kat langkawi mase cuti arituh?...

dan mengekori di belakangnya, kelihatan kelibat seseorg yg bername sulwan (hah ni konfem nama sebenar).....hah sudah,kalau sulwan tau, alamatnya memang satu kolej tahu...

Tapi saya tak sempat nak bercerita kpd mereka, cuma sempat mengangguk2 sahaja kerana sudah terlambat ke kelas encik dave "conqee" conquest....

tapi mungkin taklah ramai yg mengetahui ttg kisah di Langkawi itu tapi setiap kali ada yg bertanyakan ttg kisah itu, mulanya lidah menjadi kelu, tapi saya pun bercerita dgn nada selamba, cuba menahan sebak di dada....

Dan minggu lepas, seorg rakan saya bertanyakan kepada saya... dan saya memang klueless...
tak tau nk diceritakan apa lagi... mungkin sebab dh penat menceritakan kisah itu berdozen2 kalinya kepada berdozen2 org ataupun masih find it hard to express or describe what actually happen sebab anda memang perlu berada di tempat kejadian untuk benar2 tahu apa yg berlaku pada malam itu..tapi thankfully, pada masa rakan saya itu bertanya, Syahirah Mat (malas lah nk tulis name sebenar ke tak, anda pikir la sendiri) ada di sebelah... saya suruh dia ceritakan....
haih.........maybe bukan sebak atau malas nak cerita, maybe just tak nak dengar dah kisah yg dah berlalu tu...menggerunkan pun ada...

Jadi, saya pun terfikir nak luahkan kisah ini di blog yg sememangnya tak aktif ini...
mungkin lepas ini, rasa lebih lega untuk diri sendiri meluahkan segala2 perasaan yg terpendam...

So, this is the story about an accident that happened to me n my friends over the school holidays...if it was a book, I 'd called it "Nightmare in November".... What makes this story more real is it is from my point of view, the one in the driver seat....

ps: kisah ini amatlah panjang..memang detailed sangat...tu yang berjela saya tulis...

*taking a deep breath*

Once upon a time, in November 2008 to be exact, kami 3 sekawan ~ wan nur amira, nur syahirah mat n siti amirah suhaimi (bukan nama penuh sebenar) telah pun melancong ke Pulau Langkawi ,sort of my 3rd hometown selepas Subang Jaya n Port Dickson. This was the place I grew up in...

Kami tiba di Lapangan Terbang Langkawi lebih kurang jam 5 lebih petang...Saya masih ingat lagi di saat kami melangkah keluar ke kereta ayah saya di hadapan airport, hujan mulai turun... rintik rintik..

Sampai di rumah ayah saya yang terletak di atas bukit di kelilingi hutan belantara, kami pun berehat2kan diri... pegi tour rumah yang dah kind of usang itu... memang macam2 bau dapat dihidu...hihi yelah ayah saya duduk seorg diri sahaja di situ on weekdays... boleh dikatakan macam rumah org bujang...

Ini dia Pemandangan dari balkoni rumah tatkala senja... memang atas bukit....as you can see

Jam 7.00 malam...Ayah saya dah panggil..

Bapak (saya tak panggil ayah,sebenarnya panggil bapak,tapi nak menyedapkan cerpen ini panggillah ayah)...ok ok start over...

Bapak: Amira, bapak dah nak gi klinik balik ni...kamu nanti nk dinner ngan bapak x?
tapi lambat skitlah, around 10 o'clock bapak abis kerja...
Saya: eyh takpelah, sebenarnya kitorang nak kluar nanti kul 8 , nk tgk movie n then makan dinner kat mane2...
Bapak: Okay lah, ambik kunci kereta nih...
Saya: Okie...

Perbualan saya dan ayah memang macam nih... cepat, padat n bermakna...hehe

Jam dekat2 nak kul 8pm... 7.50 la kut... tak ingat lah semua details..

Kami ber3 pun keluar dari rumah dan memastikan semua pintu berkunci...
Keadaan di luar gelap seperti biasa..sepanjang 6 tahun saya tinggal di rumah atas bukit tuh, memang suasana malam tidak pernah terang, cuma ada cahaya lampu tiang TNB di jalan luar rumah , lampu spotlight satu dan lampu gate sepasang.

Masuk dalam kereta berwarna merah kepunyaan ayah. Saya sebenarnya tak pernah memandu kereta jenis ini...
Lain plak rasanya... saya perasan kusyennya lebih empuk...

Semasa hendak reverse untuk keluarkan kereta itu ke jalan luar,

*nak reversekan kereta ke luar rumah pun agak susah especially untuk driver berlesen 'P' seperti saya dan suasana yang gelap gelita*

*gate rumah di siang hari.........*

saya noticed hujan rintik2 dari petang tadi tidak berhenti lagi... hujan masih rintik rintik tetapi semakin kuat rintikan nya...
Setelah reverse, saya minta J.lo n syahirah tutupkan gate kerana gate controller tuh tak berfungsi la plak...

okay *peringatan* kami atas bukit sekarang, kiranya jalan untuk turun ke main road memang curam dan berliku....

saya pun drive cm biasa menuruni bukit, lepas tuh saya sedar lampu tak on... haih inilah gelagat saya memandu sebenar2nya...jujur saya cakap,memang clumsy n forgetful..... pastu saya brake, gear parking, tarik handbrake... pastu kereta itu pun stop di bawah sinaran lampu tiang TNB..

Saya pun mencari suis lampu kereta itu... setelah puas mencari, barulah jumpa... rupanya kereta ni pelik skit,,, kene press a button bukan memulaskan sesuatu seperti mana kereta yang saya sudah biasa drive macam perdana ke...

Pastu lepas dah cek semua lampu signal n wiper kat mana...saya pun meneruskan pemanduan..
* kaki still on brake, tukarkan gear, tolakkan handbrake ke bawah, then slowly lepas kan brake di kaki*

macam biasa ofkos...kereta pun turunlah bukit...yelah takkan naik kut...
dan selepas beberapa saat....
sebab kereta itu semakin laju, saya tekan lah brake di kaki... tapi kereta itu semakin laju menuruni bukit... tekan lagi .... makin laju.... tekan lagi... masih laju...

Saya pun berkata, tak tau kepada siapa," Tak boleh brake lah" dengan nada yang amat selamba...
memang x panik pun suara...tapi Allah sahaja yang mengetahui betapa berdebarnya hati itu menanti apa yg akan terjadi selepas itu....

Tapi J.lo yang berada di sebelah saya dan syahirah yang berada di belakang memang tak mengeluarkan sepatah perkataan ataupun apa2 bunyi pun...

saya pun menekan2 brake itu... memang tekan sedaya upaya tahap maksima... macam menendang je brake tu... n then saya tarik handbrake....

tapi.......kereta berwarna merah itu bergerak semakin laju.........
handbrake pun dah tarik... tak tau apa lagi yang mampu saya buat pada ketika itu... cuma mampu mengelak apa sahaja halangan yang ada di depan mata...
memng kereta itu laju yang teramat menuruni bukit curam itu...dan suasana gelap berhujan memang tidak membantu...

Dalam kegelapan itu, tiba-tiba lampu kereta menyuluh ke arah sesuatu di hadapan kami... satu paip air yang begitu besar( paip itu amat besar, digunakan untuk menyalurkan air dari reservoir atas bukit itu ke sluruh langkawi dan sehingga kuala perlis) memang betul2 di depan kami....

Hanya Allah sahaja tahu.... Hanya Allah sahaja tahu betapa saya dengan sedaya upaya menarik stereng kereta itu untuk mengelak berlangggar dengan paip besar itu... Hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu betapa takutnya saya akan keselamatan rakan2 saya bersama dalam kereta itu...

Saya tak pasti samada nak menulis " saya berjaya mengawal stereng kereta itu hingga kereta itu kembali straight ke jalan " kerana bagi saya, memang tidak ada langsung perkataan JAYA yang boleh dimasukkan ke dalam kisah tragis ini...

Walaupun cuba mengelak, instead of kereta itu melanggar paip itu terus di bahagian hadapan kereta, kereta itu terlanggar paip itu di bahagian tepi... Habis pecah berkecai tingkap di tempat J.lo berada... memang habis berkecai into little bits n pieces....

Tapi syukur ALHAMDULILLAH.... kereta itu setelah beberapa saat melanggar paip itu with a LOUD bang, akhirnya berhenti..... berhenti.

and perkataan akhirnya terkeluar dari bibir masing2 setelah seperti bertahun2 lamanya tidak kedengaran suara kami....

Saya: J.lo, ok? Syahirah ok? Oh my god, o my god o my god...

Saya dah mula panik gila....

J.lo: ok...
Syahirah: ok....

Syahirah muncul dari seat belakang...Tiba-tiba, beberapa titisan darah menitik ke arah kusyen kereta itu...titisan darah yang begitu pekat merah warnanya menitis dari dahi syahirah...
Saya dah bertambah cuak....

Saya: O my God.. sory syahirah o my God....sory sgt sgt... sory j.lo...ya Allah...

*tak tau brape banyak kali i said sorry to them...mmg tgh panik and rasa bersalah teramat sangat...

Syahirah: Bandung, relax i'm fine...cume i'm just bleeding....( sambil menahan darah daripada mengalir keluar dari dahinya ), I need something to tahankan nih...

Di tengah2 kepanikan, i offer syahirah my tudung, baju suruh tahan da wound coz tisu takdek dalam kereta tuh....

I tried calling my dad tapi die tak angkat langsung.... mmg pelik...my dad mmg xpernah x angkat fon....tak tau nk buat ape...mmg stuck kat situ...
Dari tempat kereta itu berhenti, dah boleh nampak main road dah...rasa nak gi stop je kereta yang lalu lalang kat situ...

Tiba-tiba, ada sebuah kereta menuju ke arah kami, dan nampak kelibat seorang lelaki berbangsa Cina dengan lampu suluhnya datang semakin hampir dengan kami..

Saya: Can you help us sir?? Pls help us...

Mr.X: Do you live up there? You're dr. Rahmat's daughter is it?

Saya: dengan suara separuh menangis....Yeah... my friend is bleeding.. can you take us to the hospital?? pls...

Mr.X: okay come...

Selepas itu, kami pun keluar dari kereta itu. J.Lo terpaksa keluar ikut pintu driver sebab pintunya dah mmg jammed, tak boleh bukak...

Kami pun menaiki kereta Mr.X....tak sempat saya melihat keadaan huru hara kereta itu...mungkin at that point tak sampai hati nak tgk kereta yang remuk itu...

Mr.X: You want to go to the hospital or your dad's clinic? did you call your father?

Saya: I called but he didn't answer. Which is nearer?

Mr.X: it's the same ... i think go to your father's better coz he's there...

Saya: Okay...anything....

Masuk dlm kereta Mr.X keadaan yang tegang beberapa minit yang lalu telah terlerai menjadi komedi plak...Di tengah2 menahan luka syahirah, boleh plak Mr.X berjenaka dengan kami...mungkin nak merelaxkan kami...

Mr.X: Eyh ni sorang 5 ringgit no kena bayaq?

Kami: hehehe (masih menekan luka syahirah)

Mr.X: Datang sini holiday ka?

Kami: Ha'ah...

J.lo/ Syahirah xingat : Ni kalau ambik video nih mmg menang lah KyuemTV awards arituh... real-life setting kut.....
Kami: Hahahahaha.....(boleh plak gelak masa nih)

rasa perjalanan ke klinik ayah saya sangatlah sekejap....tup tup dah sampai dah...

Masuk je klinik rahmat terus je ke kaunter pertanyaan, (mmg ade satu kaunter jer pun..hehe)..

Saya: Kak, kitorg accident...nak jumpe doktor sekarang bleh tak?

Akak nurse tuh: (blur blur plak...) ummmm sapa yang sakit....?
tak tahu la sama ada akak tuh tak faham perkataan accident ataupun rabun x nampak syahirah ngah bleeding like hell tuh... hati masing2 dah panas......

Saya: kitorg baru accident ni... nak jumpa dr. skrang jugak? Saya anak doktor...Nak jumpa bapak boleh x? Akak tuh: Isi nih dulu....

Boleh plak die bagi borang tuh kat syahirah untuk isi.... tangan die tuh terketar2...pastu J.Lo pun ambik terus borang tuh isikan tuk syahirah... Saya dah mmg bengang dah mase tuh..tak kisahlah saya ni anak doktor ke tak,,tapi ade emergency di depan mata pun x boleh nampak ke????!!!.

Saya: Tak, boleh tak saya jumpe bapak sekarang jugak... ni emergency nih...

Arh...saya dah tak sabar....tak tunggu lagi...saya pun ape lagi, terjah masuk je lah pintu bilik ubat, terus masuk bilik ayah saya.....
Nampak ayah saya, terus mata berair....

Ayah : kenape?
Saya : Kitorang accident....

Saya pun menceritakan apa yang berlaku sebentar tadi... memang menangis arh masa menceritakan...

Ayyah sedang periksa seorang patient ketika itu... Dia minta Syahirah baring atas bed tuh and suruh nurse lagi satu ambik kan kapas and bandage nak tahan luka sementara habis periksa patient tadi tuh...

Selepas itu, saya x pasti apa lagi dia letak atas kening syahirah tapi the next thing i know was dia dah duk suntik ubat bius kat atas kening syahirah... saya memng dah agak lepas nih dia mesti jahit dah nih... Dalam hati saya, kenapalah syahirah plak yang kene jahit... dah lah tengok darah pun tak boleh....hati saya semakin bersalah melihat ayah saya menjahit kening syahirah sebanyak tiga kali jahitan menggunakan penyepit dan benang dawai..

Saya tak mampu buat apa2 ketika itu...cuma mampu pegang tangan syahirah je... J.Lo dah x boleh tgk dah...dia berpaling ke arah lain...

Selepas syahirah selamat dijahit, kepalanya dibalut dengan bandage berkali2 ketat...dan dia diberi ubat untuk dimakan...
Kami tunggu di luar sementara ayah saya menghabiskan periksa semua patient yang menunggu giliran...agak ramai jugak...

Saya masih dalam keadaan panik sebenarnya... masih cakap sorry sgt2 kepada J.Lo dan Syahirah berkali2... Nasib baik diorang nih jenis gila2 dan kewl... boleh buat lawak spanjang menunggu ayah saya....

After that, kitorg gi makan McD, then balik ke tempat kejadian...ayah saya pun ambik gambar untuk polis dan orang insurance....ini gambar2 kereta yang remuk fresh from the accident....

Ni tempat J.lo duduk...the window was totally smashed...but yang peliknya dia takdek scratch langsung....darah syahirah masih kelihatan fresh di situ....

Di bawah ini kelihatan paip besar yang dilanggar. Kalau ana betul2 perhatikan ,ada sebatang paip hitam yang kecil...paip itu memang terputus lah akibat dilanggar kereta kami...
n then kitorg gi buat police report....
My mum pun called...ceritalah kat die... menangis2 jugaklah saya lagi...

Then balik rumah... mmg xbanyak dibicarakan sepanjang malam itu...Cuma ayah saya cakap...
"Anggap ini semua pengajaran....kenalah ada experience benda2 camnih... kereta tuh x kisah lah, yang penting u guys are still alive"

Then kitorg masuk tido.... mmg da whole night i nangis arh....
Nangis sebab rasa sedih, bersalah sebab i yang caused the whole accident... mmg rasa bersalah sgt2...
Nangis juga sebab rasa bersyukur....bersyukur sgt2 masih hidup...syukur sgt2 my friends are safe....

Sometimes, things like this happen to you... You may say it's pretty unlikely but the truth is this accident could happen to you, to anyone... well, it did happened to me...And I hoped and pray and beg to God that it will never occur again....

What's in the Name????

2009-01-28T08:58:00.000-08:00

I'm actually currently writing a post about a horrible accident that occurred to me and my friends over the holidays... It's taking a lot of time because it is really difficult for me to express everything that I've been through this couple of months mentally, physically and emotionally..

So, in the meantime...I just remembered that I did not post anything about why my blog is called "Sayang Si Embun"...

Well, it's actually very simple...

My late grandma on my mother's side is named Wan Nur Sayang... seriously it's the truth...

An my grandma on my father's side is Cik Embun.... Seriously tak tipu...

Growing up, I always thought that they had really kewl names...
So, I just thought..."heck, why not?"

So, there you go.... Now you know what's in the name........:)

i cant

2009-01-19T07:46:00.000-08:00

Tonite i realise that I can't do a lot of things.... It's so freaking frustrating.....

Ten things I can't:

1. I can't go to sleep
2. I can't do this Math
3. I can't take this test
4. I can't handle it
5. I can't balance it all
6. I can't be what his norm is
7. I can't solve this simultaneous equation
8. I can't say it out loud
9. I can't have it my way
10.I can't take it anymore

i know it's a bit sad and sappy...pathetic even...

dah arh, nak gi bwat kanji nih plak... :)

alahai cik katun...

2009-01-16T08:30:00.000-08:00

Haish.... alahai cik katun...
gara-gara seorang gadis bernama nur katun roslan (bukan nama sebenar) bertanyakan kepada saya petang tadi semasa saya sibuk dgn pelaka n berus di upper foyer , " Wah banban dah ade blog!". Tersentak saya dibuatnya... memang nk kena cik katun nih.... dah lah gelombang bunyi die melebihi 3000 hertz...(jgn nk kutuk, saya x ambik fizik)...saya pun br teringat yang saya ni pernah buat blog... huhu

Saye pun melayarilah blog2 malam ini selepas menyaksikan persembahan vokal terbaik yang saya pernah dengar di kyuem ( lima jejaka berbaju biru...ehem2)...,say ter-masuk blog sapphire, nama rakan2 sapphire...tersentak lagi dibuatnya melihat... bandung si jelita browny?????? apekah???
dah lah dah berkurun lama blog itu tidak diupdate kan.... haih...sedih la plak tgk blog nih...
Selepas itu,saya pun browsing2 laptop nih..terjumpe lah gambar baru2 ini...tentang........

APA LAGI KALAU BUKAN B.A.K.I.N.G!!!!!!

jeng...jeng...jeng....

haha...jangan lah terperdaya dengan gambar di atas... bukan saya yang buat...haha
tapi this is my dream desert to make.... its called kalo x silaplah....
Oreo Mint Chocolate Mousse.... lebuh kurang camtuh lah...
kat tgi fridays...sedap giiler.... ps: ini berlaku sebelum saya dan keluarga mem boikot mana2 pihak yg terlibat dlm keganasan di Palestine... masuk hari ini... sudah dekat 2 minggu rasenye sudah x makan kfc, mcd, pizza hut etc...haha berjaya!

DAN inilah yang sebenarnya saya bake last week masa balik rumah...
SARDINE ROLL!!!! bukan macam kuih sardin di kafe setiap pagi tuh...
ini lebih berkhasiat, tidak bergoreng deep fry...hanya dibakekan....
atas permintaan aunty2 saya di port dickson...kami buat potluck lunch n hi-tea...

Tapi ini adalah gambar sebelum siap...lupa plak nak tangkap gambar selepas membuat....
ada cam gaya pembaker profesional tak??? sah sah tak...huhu

Satu lagi benda amatur yang saya yang amatur ni buat adalah...
DADIH bukan dadah...berperisa mango n cokelat...
terpakse buat chocolate atas permintaan adik saya yang sentiasa di depan ps3 tuh...
mango lagi sedap!

So nothing really special about my baking activities tis month...
semuanya biasa2 sahaja....
lebih2 lagi bila stuck kat kolej nih....dah demam 4 hari berjangkit daripada seorang hamba Allah ini, my ***** classm8 bername *tut* (bukan nama sebenar)...die batuk skali dh berjangkit... isk isk isk....memang nak kena btol...

jadik, ke hadapan cik katun roslan...terima kasihlah banyak2 kerana tanpa anda, siapalah blog ini pada malam ini...sekian terima kasih...

A Walk Through November

2008-11-30T09:37:00.000-08:00

This past month has been very........so many words to describe this....
stressful~with the AS
glad~ its over n done with
happy ~ cuti !!!
fun ~ langkawi trip
traumatic ~ road down the hill
guilty~ 3 stitches
regret ~ unfamiliar circumstances
fearful~ fear for all my loved ones

A near death experience

such an experience can be sobering,
from the drunk goggles of life,
weather the cause be accidental,
or as intentional as crime,
'cause in reality thats all it is,
the theft of a life,
it kicks your head back into reality,
the fact that nobody is safe,
like an unspoken rule,
it is a deep subject,
festering in the minds of many,
such a situation is so unfair,
that an invisible concept rules the minds of so many

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~i'm so glad that the month of november is going to end...
i just hope for happier times in december...
i am thankful that i'm still here,
i am thankful that 2 of my closest friends are still safe ,sound, n crazy still :p
i am glad dad was here with us yesterday n mom is unaffected by the incident...
i wish no one will ever go thru what i went thru tis month of november....

ps: i'll tell more when i upload the pics...

of brownies, cookies, and blueberry cheesecake...

2008-11-30T08:25:00.000-08:00

EUREKA!!!!!! after living for 19 years in this world, I found it, I finally found what i was looking for... :)
i found out what i actually want to do with my life... i want to be...jengx3...a BAKER!!!!!
ok i know this sounds a bit out of the blue but serius ni, saya mempunyai cita-cita untuk menjadi seorang baker (baker dlm bahasa melayu ape eyh?) yang berjaya.... ok i know that right now i dont have the means to be a baker ( i dah antar ucas application for actuarial science dh pun ).but maybe just maybe suatu hari nanti i'd be able to pursue this other dream of mine....

i suke sgt baking... masak? not so much...just because of the minyak yang panas meledak yang boleh terpercik ke anggota badanku...tidak!!!!!!!! sgt sakit... so masak x brape suke lah...hehe but will try to learn of course...

ever since raya aidilfitri recently, i really got into baking. before this, i did bake brownies and sardine rolls..easy things like that..but during the month of ramadhan, i opt for more challenging recipes...hihi first i did kuih nestum... ok so 1st try xjdk(hangus kat bawah die hehe), but 2nd try jadik!!! yahooo!!!
tapi sedih i sorang je makan...

my brothers ni fussy skit , kuih2 kureng nk makan esp my little brother who cm anak org putih, a product of mcD, grand theft auto,too much ps3...he only eats famous amos cookies...cisss...walaupun adik saya hampeh dan saya hampa tetapi ini tidak memutuskan asa saya dalam meneruskan perjuangan sambil belajar baking...

so i continued the small steps of being a baker by doing yet another difficult recipe~ blueberry cheesecake... aunty ha's famous recipe....jadik!!!! but oklah, maybe base die tuh boleh kurangkan ketebalan but ok la... atleast my abang makan la gak...yatta!!!

but this fun journey was cut short...because raya was ending n back to kyuem for a reality check.. im still an a level student trying to go overseas for a degree which is not baking....haih... but no fear i could not wait for end of the year holidays for more baking.... heeeeee

so thats how it all start...how i found out i finally had a dream... my OWN dream...something i could do in the future...because at the end of the day, you just want to be happy with what you do, doesnt matter how much you earned, but if I am happy with what i'm doing, then to me, i earned much more than i could ever imagined :)

starting anew

2008-11-30T08:17:00.000-08:00

i decided to start anew, once again...
i havent been very successfull blogging..
truth be told, im not good at this whole expressing yourself to a heartless rectangular shaped screen..
i'm pretty old fashioned..i prefer sharing with objects that could actually respond to whatever i'm saying... but hey i'm giving this another go... partly because i am dead bored but i do have somethings in my life that i want to share with this rectangular piece of metal...mine's pink in colour by the way...hihi
so here it goes.......
ok out of ideas....hehe wait for next posts ya